Sometimes I Have Bloggerhea, Sometimes I Dont.

NEW POST..

2011-02-25T22:14:00.000-08:00

I haven't disappeared or anything, I've just been busy. Life has been one huge roller coaster over the last couple of months. I will say that I have taken many things for granted that I no longer do. Family gatherings mean the world to me, they always have been a key component to my existence; but suddenly they have taken on new meaning in my eyes. My sarcasm and wit seem to be faltering but I am- still me. I've had a lot of time to assess my forth and short comings. I've learned that my relationships with people are crucial. I've learned that I am not fearless nor am I invincible.

Sometimes I ponder the idea of writing a novel, but who would read it?

I took the time to take an IQ test to gage and assess just how smart I really am. It turns out that I am no genius nor am I a nincompoop, I know! Who knew that it was spelled that way, right?! (PS- I'm above average, in case you were wondering.)

A story--

Two weeks ago, I borrowed my mother's car. I was beyond excited to connect my ipod to her sound system. I was using it quite often and left it in the car. We live in Brooklyn, so of course the doors are always locked after leaving it. Anyway, I returned the car to her and had a feeling that I'd be borrowing it again soon, so I left all of my crap in it. One night, I was visiting my parents. When I was ready to leave, my mother offered to drive me home. I took her up on the offer. We walked out to the car and I pulled on the door handle to open the door. I am that person who never gives the driver enough time to unlock the door before trying to open it. The driver usually rolls their eyes at me, and says something like "gimme a sec, gosh" Except this time, the door opened without a fuss. Right away I knew that I was doomed. The car had been ransacked. The glove compartment was hanging open and the hump was raised. My heart dropped. I didn't even have to look, I knew that my ipod was gone. The white USB cord limply dangled from the hump.Suddenly I felt ill.

My ipod means the world to me. I get very attached to my electronic devices. The dumb ipod was a good 6 years old. Everyone made fun of it when I whipped it out. But that's just me. When I am attached to something, I find no reason to upgrade it unless it is absolutely necessary. I loved the vintage feel of it. My list of playlists was enormous. Each list had a story. I carefully hand picked each song and named the list accordingly. My lists defined me. I could understand how people would have a hard time understanding my strife. Who cares, right? It's so silly. Wrong. Those playlists were the soundtrack of my life. My walking diary. The last six or seven years of my life. Gone forever, stolen by a petty thief who was probably disappointed with his spoils. Maybe he made fifty bucks off of it, if even. For all I know he dumped it in the nearest trash can (unless of course, he was a fan of indie obscure music, classic oldies and BRIGHT EYES) DOUBTFUL. I know I seem sexist but my mind tells me it was a male who committed this crime, sorry folks. So yeah. My computer wasn't backed up with my playlists because it had crashed about a year ago and had to be reconfigured. Therefore, they were gone, just like that. One dark friday night in a driveway, one car whose door was left unlocked.. "I'll buy you a new one Rach, I'm sorry" my mother said. I explained to her that I didn't want a new one and she kinda knew that it wasn't the issue. I thanked her of course, she's so cute.

I wish I ripped my lists, but I didn't and I will always feel badly about that.

Recently I got a new computer. A part of me misses my old one that was on its last leg. Again, my devices are like my babies, okay, I'm weird, we know this. I unwrapped the new ipod that had been accumulating dust since the summer in my drawer after winning it in an auction. Everything is new and I am SO LUCKY to have these replacements, things could be a lot worse... but, I will forever miss my babies.

One thing remains the same with me. I do not fair well with goodbyes.

TWO THINGS...

2010-11-27T08:47:00.000-08:00

1) I'm completely, totally and utterly jealous of TAYLOR SWIFT. Not only is she gorgeous, talented and sweet, she also has landed one of he cutest guys around!!!! I love JAKE GYLLENHAAL! I think he is adorable and insanely talented as an actor. After seeing him in PROOF with GWYNETH PALTROW, I almost melted when he took his shirt off with one hand. You know that move I'm talking about right?? Like the guy uses his arm over the back of his neck and lifts it off?? So cute.

2) Is anyone as obsessed with the latest TARGET commercials as I am? The one with the type A blonde girl "training" for BLACK FRIDAY and the HOLIDAY SEASON? I havent laughed so hard at a commercial in a while. This chick is hilarious. Love when she stares at herself in the mirror and sikes herself out saying "YOU WILL WIN THIS" The outside clips are ridiculous! Omg, priceless. Whoever is handling the marketing and advertising for TARGET, keep up the good work! My kind of humor for sure!!

I LOVE THIS!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

2010-11-26T21:03:00.000-08:00

Just a little TG love for y'all. We made these... How adorable?!

Happy Thanksgiving!!

OH, HEY!

2010-11-19T13:57:00.001-08:00

It seems that blogs are the new rage lately. In my world, they have always been. I am glad to see that people are starting to dig into their literary souls! Congrats to my friends E and J on starting their very own blogs. I noticed that J refers to people/friends in letter form, like yours truly... Keep it up guys!

This week was definitely interesting. Turns out that I'm a damn good sales woman, holler! I made the biggest sale of my life yesterday and I can easily say that it felt AMAZING!!! Now, normally I would've called every person I knew to tell them, but I didn't. I didn't have that urge. Just knowing that I could do it felt great so I left it at that. Then again, I am writing it on here so... Again, I digress.

I find that lately, sitting in traffic gets on my nerves a little more than usual. Lord knows what's in store for me. The holiday season is just beginning and already I find myself cursing out other drivers on the road and complaining to to cab drivers that "This traffic is INSANE" They never answer, they just keep talking on their cell phones unfazed by my antsy-ness.

Speaking of cab drivers, while in a cab the other night, my driver, was on his cell phone. Let's face it- even though it is against the law for cab drivers to be on the phone even with an ear piece, they are always on their phones. Okay, so back to my story, a cop car puts his bloopy sounding semi siren on ( btw, what is that odd sound? like an under water burp dolphin burp?) and says "Why are you on your phone?" My cabby in broken english just says "I,I,I, sorry sir sooo soo sorry" Cops says "But WHY are you on your phone?" staring him down. The same 3 lines were said 3 more times. I was about to shout at the cop and say "Make up your mind already, are we getting pulled over, or what? We have established that he was on his phone, now what? I'm going to be late" (what? I had somewhere to go?!) when suddenly I sat up and glanced over at the cop and he was the most beautiful guy I have ever seen. He caught me staring at him, we locked eyes. He smiled back and let us go.. Oh well, the one that got away. No pun intended. Of course I did what any shameless girl would do. I checked Missed Connections for a marriage proposal from this said cop. Surprisingly enough, it wasn't there. I know, right?? Oh well..

Have I mentioned lately how much I adore my sisters and my family? Good, because I'm just here to say it again. I learn so much from each and everyone of them, including S the youngest of them all. I don't mention my sister in law because she is my sister, obvs. Gosh, I'm so lucky.

I really miss N, I wish she didn't have to move. I'm siked for her though. I know she's going to be huge in the music world.

I will leave you all with this--

“Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent.”

- Victor Hugo

IMAGINE...

2010-10-16T08:38:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my birthday. Not a huge birthday person. I'm thankful to be alive though, I take none of it for granted. I'm just usually melancholy on my date of birth. Okay, next.

Last night I watched THE KILLING OF JOHN LENNON. It might've been the most harrowing movie I've seen in a while. Chapman is portrayed as a total nut bag. The style in which the film was shot just added to the chill factor. I am so affected by this movie it is insane. I missed the first forty minutes though, which kinda stunk. Chapman at one point says "I was nobody until I killed the biggest somebody on earth" Now, if that doesn't make you shudder.... What will? What made the movie so chilling was the fact that it was shot in the style of a documentary. At times, I found myself wondering if the film indeed was a documentary. "Chapman" narrates throughout the film, giving the viewer a feeling of being inside this mans actual mind. His voice is monotone and eerie. His obsession with the book THE CATCHER IN THE RYE, is a key component to Chapman's motive. He was obsessed with the story's protagonist HOLDEN CAULFIELD, so obsessed that at certain times, he would refer to himself as HOLDEN (freaky, I know). Chapman resented Lennon for his "phoniness" as well. The film is a direct re-enactment of Chapman's account of the weeks leading up to the murder and following the murder, using court documents, Chapman's confession and police accounts. Visually, the film takes you to all the places in New York that he visited. The scenes in front of THE DAKOTA building freaked me out, along with the hotel room scenes. The part that got the most was the fact that just hours before the killing, Chapman got Lennon to autograph his copy of Lennon's new album DOUBLE FANTASY outside of his building. WHOA.

I don't want to give it all away, but I will say this, THE CATCHER IN THE RYE is one of my most favorite books in the whole wide world. Today I have a very strange feeling towards the book. Hopefully, I can get over it soon. Of all books!!! If you want to really learn about Lennon's murder and learn about his killer, I highly recommend this film. As disturbing as it is, it is very informative and gripping.

Of course there are other theories surrounding Lennon's death. There have been for 30 years, this is nothing new. Some believe Chapman was "put up to it", but you already knew that.

It's a shame that LENNON is gone. I love his work. He was so talented. I feel pain for his sons and his widow. At the end of the day, their father/husband was murdered in cold blood. How does anyone go on living after witnessing such a terrible thing? The world might've lost an iconic figure and artist, but his family lost their nucleus.

Chapman was sentenced 20 years to life and has since been denied parole 6 times.

BLUE NOTE...

2010-09-26T13:22:00.000-07:00

Today, we lost a great man. Earlier this morning I was shocked to hear that my old teacher Lonny Benamy (a'h) had passed away. Upon hearing the news, my body immediately felt as if I had been kicked in the stomach. Immediately I was overcome with sadness, regret and devastation. Aside from losing my grandma 10 years ago, thankfully I'd never really lost anyone remotely close to me. This was a sad second.

Lonny was my 9th grade biology teacher in high school. From the very first day of class, I liked him. He stood out from the rest of the teachers. He had a larger than life way about him. He was extremely educated which made me feel privileged to be in his class. He was real. As a child I loved science. I always wanted to be a nurse. Lonny's class was something I looked forward to. He was the type of person who knew everything about everything, yet he took the time to indulge us with our questions and allowed us to challenge a point. He listened and encouraged us to be inquisitive. His dry humor always made us laugh in class. He was the school nurse. He was the disciplinarian. He had office hours for late note excuses, cut clearing, gum chewing fines, untucked shirts and anything else you could think of. His office during lunch time was a mad house. Lonny was a HUGE figure in high school. You didn't want to mess with him either.

I can say without any hesitancy that he liked me, for whatever strange reason! When he wasn't in the mood to joke around you knew it. One time I called out something silly and nonsensical in class, normally he'd laugh or roll his eyes; if you were lucky he'd come up with a one liner that shredded you in a harmless way, leaving the class rolling in laughter. However this time he wasn't in the mood. "R, go down to Mr. Meller" he said as he filled out the dreaded GREEN CARD. I was aghast. ME??? How could he get me in trouble?? See, that was the thing, with Lonny no one was above the law. I didn't care though. I still valued him and thought of him as one of my favorites. I forgave him even though he didn't ask for forgiveness. Right before I left school he asked to meet with me. I was confused. "What did he want to talk about? Did I do something wrong? Am I in
trouble?" all of that circulated in my head. It turned out that he just wanted to make sure that I was happy. We spoke about schools and continuing my education. He let me know that if I ever needed any help with applying and what not, he was there- he wanted to wish me well. My sisters A and S were still in school once I had left and every now and then he would ask them how I was and what I was up to. At that time, I was in culinary school. I couldnt believe that he cared. He had so many students. My friends' parents had him! He knew everyone, yet he cared about what I was up to and how I was holding up? I am sure that he was like that with many.

I remember after I left school it was a bit complicated getting all of my records together. Trying to get my transcript was a nightmare. One day I just went to the school and asked to pick it up. No one could really help me. I went to Lonny's class. He was in the middle of teaching. I knocked on the door, he came out and saw that I was frustrated. He told his class that he would be right back. He helped me as much as he could. He was just THAT type of person. He also kept to his word. If he said he would be somewhere, he'd be there. Anytime we invited him to a wedding or a charity event, he would come with a smile.

Setting all of that aside, he had a heart of gold. Lonny was there for me in school as a mentor, as an advisor and as a friend after I left school. Whenever I was in his presence I felt lucky to know him. He was a great listener. He never judged. He was the picture of good health. A few years ago, I had heard that Lonny became sick. The first emotion that hit me was shock. How on earth could someone like him get sick?? This man took such great care of himself. Well, I guess that was an immature thought because we all know that getting sick has nothing to do with that. He was just unlucky. As soon as I had heard I rushed to call him. It turned out that he was in a hospital in Brooklyn recovering from surgery. I remember baking him a band-aid cake and taking it to the hospital. I wanted to show him that I continued school after leaving and that I could make a crazy cake! When I walked into the room I expected to feel awkward or pressed for words. I should've known better! Lonny was in great spirits. He LOVED the cake and was so appreciative that I brought something with me. A few minutes into the visit, his childhood friend walked into the room, I felt like I should give them alone time and started to put my jacket on. He looked at me and said "Where are you going?" I said that I wanted to give them some privacy, he looked at me like I was crazy. "Sit down" he said, "Don't be silly". I did just that. Lonny introduced me to his friend and explained to him that I was a student of his a while ago. They started to share stories and I just listened in, amazed by their solid friendship. Next thing I knew, they were including me in the conversation! Again, I felt so lucky to know him.

He looked at his sickness as a little hurdle to overcome. He was not going to let it slow him down. He talked about his three kids and how proud he was of each and every one of them. He talked about his love of Cornell, which was nothing new! He talked about his travels- he loved to travel. He was a man with an agenda. He loved to be active. I couldn't help but feel sad seeing him like that in a hospital bed. I hoped that he would get better because a slow paced lifestyle wasn't for him. All he could talk about were his runs and walks in the park and how much he loved the outdoors and hiking. He wasn't worried, he was determined. We talked about going for lunch with my sisters once he got out of the hospital. He called to thank me for visiting and asked me for the recipe for the cake I baked. His mother loved it, he said. Thats was Lonny, he always was appreciative. He followed up.

My sister Dee and I went for lunch with him some time later. He was so happy to see her too. He wanted to know what she was up to. How her new baby was. I remember joking around, saying that it wasn't fair that Dee and my brother in law, both brown eyed people had a baby blue eyed child. We laughed about dominant and recessive genes, something he taught us in Biology class. We had such a nice time. We laughed a lot. He was so easy going. He looked great. He told us that he was feeling good. He refused to be told to take it easy. He was slowly building up his strength and was walking a ton in the park. He told us that he started out at a slow pace in small distances months earlier and that he had built his way up to jogging miles again. He was basically a walking miracle. He was so proud of his progress. We were amazed but not maybe surprised. Lonny was one of the strongest people I've ever come into contact with. If anyone was going to beat the odds, it was him and he did just that. With all of his strength I expected him to be guarded. To my surprise he was not. He was a person just like the rest of us. He was open about his treatments. He spared nothing. I respected him even more for that. In writing this, I am teary eyed. The thought of him being gone is surreal. I believed that he would out live us all. We spoke a few more times after that lunch. He came out to New Jersey for the day one time during the summer to hang with all of us. We made lunch by the house and took it easy. It was a great day. He spoke about his kids with such pride. His daughter was a writer and he was so proud of her. His sons were in school and he couldn't be any happier. He was in great spirits. He was better. I knew he would be. We all knew he'd beat it. In typical Lonny fashion, he called the next day to thank us and said that he had an amazing day. He always followed up.

When I found out that Lonny had passed, I was in disbelief. I had no idea that he was sick again. The last time I saw him he was doing well. Yes being sick took somewhat of a toll on him but he looked great. Immediately I rushed back to Brooklyn to attend the funeral. "This couldn't be" was all I said over and over to myself on the ride in. "How did I not know that he was
sick?" None of that mattered now. He was gone. Oddly, he had popped into my mind last week. I had made a mental note to call him. Sadly I never got to speak with him. I was told that his health took a turn for the worse and that it all happened relatively fast. I wish I knew. He lived in my neighborhood, whenever I drove by his house I thought of him. Just knowing that he lived nearby was nice.

Dee and I went to the funeral. It was too sad to describe. The speeches were special. Hearing his children speak was gut wrenching. They spoke beautifully and captured his essence. It just wasn't enough. I had so much to say. I wanted everyone to know how he affected so many lives. I wanted his kids to know just how special we thought he was. I wanted him to know that everything that I learned in his class stuck with me. I wanted him to know that it felt great dropping the term vestigial structures every now and then. I wanted him to know that Darwin's Finches still freak me out and that one day I'd make my way to Galapagos Island. I wanted him to know that I was glad to know him. I wanted him to know that I use the word "like" a lot less now. Unfortunately I cant tell him any of this. What I do know now, is that life is short. Today is what counts- not tomorrow. I feel lucky to have known him.

Lonny had a zest for life. He set the bar high and he overcame because he refused to let his sickness get the best of him. He lived life to its fullest. Which is what I intend to do.

May he rest in peace.

Lonny Benamy A"H.

ONCE....

2010-06-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

I find myself to be a very perceptive human being. Sometimes this works in my favor, other times, not so much...
You see, sometimes I dont wanna see half the stuff I see. Sometimes I wish I were oblivious to my surroundings. I see the most random things and become scarred for life...

When I was 9, My mom left a bowl of warm milk out for a cat who was pregnant. She felt the need to feed it and take care of it in her own way on our back porch. The next evening, we heard wailing coming from the backyard. What I saw scarred me. This cat gave birth to her litter. The mother cat was all wet looking and strange looking. She almost looked as if she were electrocuted and possessed. Next to her was a pile of wet fur and nastiness. The mother ate her babies. The sight was gruesome. From that day on I was terrified of cats and kittens. If a mother could eat her own babies, I wanted nothing to do with her kind. Gross. Traumatizing. Heavy on the ewwww!!

When I was in London, years ago, a bum was camped out on a deserted street chugging a gallon of red wine solo at 11 AM. I was so uneasy with the sight. Instead of looking away, I found myself staring at him as we walked by him. Next thing you know, he uked all over himself and the sidewalk. The site made me gag. I didnt touch red wine for 4 years.

(Since, we are on scarring stories, lemme share this one with you.....

When I was little, I refused to eat the egg white part of hard boiled eggs. my mother told me that I couldnt just eat the yellow part (gross, I know) and that I had to eat the white part too. I ate it and thre my guts up. Til this day, I havent eaten a hard boiled egg white, nor have I eaten any kind of egg white on its own. I struggle with eggs as a whole as a matter of fact. So yeah... )

These things just present themselves in front of me. I notice everything. Well, mostly everything. I constantly find myself asking myself "WHY MEEEEE???

When I was in 7th grade, there was a rumor going around in school that there was a mouse on the loose. I am petrified of vermin. Like really scared. Low and behold, Im sitting in class with my head on the desk obsessed with the thought of the mouse, and the little Willard plops right off the soffit of the ceiling onto my desk. I can still hear the plopping noise when I think of it. I LOST MY MIND. like, really, lost it. I was frantic, It took the school nurse and guidance counselor 2 hrs. to calm me down.

I have a million more stories like this, but Ill spare you because Im sure you are now thoroughly grossed out. I just dont know why I am victimized by these random scenarios.

Do things like this happen to anyone else???

SOMETIMES...

2010-05-25T15:54:00.000-07:00

SOMETIMES... I think Ive seen it all only to discover that I havent seen anything yet.

SOMETIMES... silence is golden.

SOMETIMES.... I think too much about the dumbest things.

SOMETIMES... Im all about the now yet I find myself thinking about later.

SOMETIMES... I wonder what my obsession with all things marshmallow says about me.

SOMETIMES... I feel like a genius, other times I feel like a complete dunce.

SOMETIMES... I am able to see random things before they happen & wish that I had told someone about my prediction beforehand.

SOMETIMES... I crave free time.

SOMETIMES... free time is scary.

SOMETIMES... I love the sound of birds chirping, other times I find the noise to be insanely annoying.

SOMETIMES... I think that I am over the color orange. Gasp.

WHEN IT RAINS...

2010-05-19T13:55:00.000-07:00

Im kind of not minding this ugly weather. Sometimes we need a lazy day to just relax and chill out. I welcome days like this every now and then.

Yesterday, on the other hand was a bit of a pain with the rain and all. Work had me walking back and forth from the office to the design building three times. I got soaked and trampled on each time. Is it me or do people act ridiculously inept when it rains? Drivers drive slower and people on foot carry umbrellas completely unfazed by those they share the sidewalk with. Whats up with that? Hello its an umbrella?! When someone walks by you lift it up, dont poke them in the face with it! Why is this so hard for people to comprehend? Yesterday I rocked my very own navy and white polka dotted umbrella. When I passed others on the street I was very mindful. After all, it was my responsibility to be careful not to poke, bump or soak anyone with it. An umbrella is a weapon in NYC, I dont care what anyone says. Its like driving stick, you constantly need to adjust your speed and be fully aware. Some dude walked by me in his gym gear with a massive one, he completely hogged the sidewalk. I walked by dodging an injury and said "Wow, that thing is a house!" he didnt even smile. Nor did he scoot over. I ha to literally stop and wait for him to pass. Good luck to him and his oversized house. If he was so macho he couldve braved the storm without one. What a DORK.

After my long day I had to drive to NJ without windshield wipers. I know, I know, Im ridiculous already. I will fix them this weekend hopefully. But btw, RAIN X is amazing. What a genius invention. Im not going to lie, driving was a tad hairy at times.

I know that this might ruin my street cred with whatever readers I have left-- but Ive become a fan of this seasons AMERICAN IDOL. I cringe as I type this, so go easy on me. Im human.

Okay, anyway, Im in love with LEE DEWYZE. OH EM GEE this mans voice hits me hard. I want him to win so badly. Ever since I heard him cover THE BOXER Ive been obsessed. His sings with such passion and vulnerability, I find myself staring at him on stage. He is so talented its insane. If I say that Ive listened to it 60 times it would be an understatement. My poor car...

So anyway, last night he covered the song HALLELUJAH. Now, as far as Im concerned no man should ever have the nerve to ever go there. JEFF BUCKLEY is the only one I can listen to sing it. If you havent heard it, Im beyond sick for you. Get on it like NOW. Unfortunately he is no longer alive and as a result of this, I find it to be all the more haunting. He takes this deep breath before he sings and I get the craziest dose of goose bumps all over my body. Yeah its THAT INTENSE.

DEWYZE did a damn good job singing it. A and I feel the same way about JB's version BUT we both got the chills immediately. The judges were in awe. I wasnt!! Ive been saying this for weeks now, this man owns the competition. CASEY is talented AND he plays the guitar (swoon) but hes a (hot) tool. He sounds like a sheep at times. In my opinion, its because he has a hard time hitting certain notes.... It doesnt matter. We dont need to worry about him, hell get signed regardless of whether he wins or not. CRYSTALS cool- but I dunno, Im not feeling it. Ive seen singers like her. Shell probably get signed as well. Theyre definitely pushing the JANIS JOPLIN angle with her. EH- not my type.

K, Im glad we had this convo. No, I havent voted because Im sorry, I refuse to cross that line (yet).... Love you for listening. Now heres BUCKLEYS version. Listen to this man sing and play his guitar. I dare you to disagree with me.

(I hate posting videos but IMEEM is gone and Im lazy, maybe just listen and dont watch the eerie image)

Also, heres DEWYZES cover of THE BOXER.. Listen to how he sings "I am leaving, I am leaving" he is submerged in it.

REVIEW...

2010-05-15T09:08:00.000-07:00

This week was cool.

1. I finished class on Monday. Sadly, my final grade was not up to par, according to my standards, at least. I am an over achiever, therefore a B+ is not acceptable. I sulked about it for a few, Im pretty much over it now.

2. Work was exciting. My job has been extended! (Kind of old news, but I havent shared that on here.)

3. Went to a RAY BAN party with friends and saw a ton of rad peeps. Including but not limited to Juliette Lewis ( THE OTHER SISTER was a great movie and she was amazinggg in it, Z made sure to tell her) THE STROKES, Chloe Sevigny, IGGY POP (what a stage presence! Yes, he was shirtless, which can be a bit disturbing at 60+ years old with the loose skin issue and all, but he was phenomenal!!) , The VIRGINS and a few more. Best part was, we got totally hooked up with swag. I ended up with a bad ass pair of red shades. I also got trampled on in a mosh pit, which is always eventful.

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5. I really should fix my wind shield wipers. Waking up to rain has become an exhausting unnecessary challenge. Maybe someone wants to do this dreaded errand for me? Its already paid for in full. Ill make you an amazing cd in exchange. Ill even throw in a batch of cookies.

In other news I just had to plunk down $230 for a new thermostat for my dryer. The whole unit costs 600! After bitterly handing over my credit card to the the repair man, he advised me not to use the unit until I have the exhaust pipe cleaned out. If I dont do this, the newly installed thermostat will blow out almost immediately. " Umm.. Can you do that?" I asked. He handed me a business card for a duct cleaner and wished me a good day-- "Hes working today, you can call him" he retorted back with not a shard of empathy. Suddenly I felt like I was had. Something tells me that buying a new dryer will be an addition to my upcoming "to do" list. A part of me feels like I could probably do it myself. I love fixing stuff and putting stuff together. However, this pipe looks a tad scary. Defeat. I already put in the call to my air man. I love having things repaired and then being told that I cant actually USE the fixed device.

Im not feeling the J Brand cargo skinnies. Sorry. Im not sure that Ill ever embrace cargos again.

I am feeling this weather!!!

POST #259...

2010-04-21T17:02:00.000-07:00

Well, here it is! I've made it to 259 posts!!!

My professor and I got into a public convo during class about blogging the other day. He basically said that he thinks blogs are ridiculous. In his opinion, people waste too much time giving their opinions when they know nothing. He thinks that there are way too many outlets for people to voice what's on their mind without having actual facts to back them up. I swallowed really hard and tried not to get offended. Id be lying if I said that I was unfazed. His opinions are none of my business, everyone is entitled to their thoughts. I boldly said that I thought he was opinionated and didnt understand what was wrong with that. I find him to be very strong in his convictions. I respect that. I even encouraged him to start a blog of his own because of this said trait of his.

Then, he mentioned that hed never even read a blog before. Well not that exactly- he said that he glanced at one before and that it turned him off for good because he found the writer to be ignorant and the comments even more obnoxious. It wasnt the time nor the place to give him the birds and the bees talk surrounding blogs. (You know, explaining that there are all different types of blogs (political ones, style ones, music ones, pet ones, my kind... ) I found myself becoming defensive because, I feel like my blog is light and nothing like what he was describing. That was until I told him about a poets blog that I read about on R's blog. My professor suddenly became intrigued. Apparently he is a fan of this poet. By classes end, he asked for the poets blog address. I scribbled it down for him and signed it with a smiley face with the word "Enjoy!" at the bottom. Then, he thanked me. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!

Is this picture not totally scrumptious??

ONE FOR YOU & TWO FOR ME...

2010-04-15T16:56:00.000-07:00

It seems that I do things in pairs. Shall we compose a list to demonstrate? Yes, we shall. As far as Im concerned the number 1 is pretty much nonexistent to me.

1. I only eat gum in 2's. Never ever one piece.

2. Same goes for tic-tacs, except I push the envelope and go with 3 at a time. Lately tho, the family size pack spills out a good 5 or 6 when I tip it into my mouth. Yes, Im that person who puts their mouth on the box. If you do the same with my box, chances are, Ill be your new best friend, because that means you have nerve and I like that. I probably wont touch the box again though.Yep, thats right- I am a hypocrite but (ONLY) in this case.

3. When using exclamation points, I never use one. Guaranteed 2-4, at all times. Btw, I overuse them.

4. I put 2-3 splendas/poison in my decaf skinny vanilla latte'.

5. 2 cocktails straws in my drink and 2 limes- always.

6. I press the snooze button-- twice-- most mornings.

7. I never buy just one magazine at a news stand or book store.

8. If I like an article of clothing Ill buy it in two or more colors.

There are a million more examples that I can share but Im boring you so Ill stop. Its funny, in writing this post, Ive come to the realization that I have a hard time with the number 1 as a whole. If someone were to ask me what my favorite song were, Id never be able to narrow it down to one song. The same goes for movies and books. ONE is so committal. Why would anyone want to be tied down to just one thing??? We live in a world that revolves around options!!! EXPAND EXPAND EXPAND!!! Maybe I just have commitment issues and this post is my cop out, I dont know and who even cares?!

Try TURKEY HILL's PARTY CAKE ice cream. Its vile and delicious. Why?? Because it has chunks of cake, ice cream and frosting in it, its pretty much a birthday cake in a tub!!! See? Multiple flavors (plural)= EXCITEMENT sure VANILLA is delicious, but after a while dont you get bored of the same old thing (singular)= BORING.

I rest my case.

x to tha o.

HIATUS? I THINK NOT...

2010-04-11T21:00:00.000-07:00

Yes, I've skipped out on my blog a bit, things have been hectic and not having internet while I was away kinda made things even worse. But fret, you must not, because alas, I am here to spread love, nonsense and fodder.

I have this theory in life. If you are a hot girl and you can dance, you have it made. After numerous unofficial surveys, it seems that girls who are on fire and are pretty much all that and a bottle of XXX (Vitamin Water) all have a common denominator--They can dance like its nobodies bizz. Put on a great jam (IMMA BEE, is a great start) and they own that sh*t. These girls tend to be hated. They should not be, they should be commended on their talent and other spastic dancers should aspire to be half of that. Now stop hating ladies, and get on this. Thank me later, okay?

Right now I should be writing a paper about public spaces for class tomorrow. Im not, Im here. Blogging, Im irresponsible and Ill be bummed about it tomorrow when Im scrambling to make my dead line. I will turn in a mediocre paper and sulk about it.

R and I had some great convo over the holiday and Im so happy to hear that R has started R's very own blog. Congrats, and welcome to the blogosphere!!! I remember when I first started out, I was super nervous about my posts. Id get really insecure about my writing so Id make fun of myself while inside I wished that anyone with a pulse would read it and maybe enjoy it. There is nothing more rewarding in the world than hearing that someone enjoys any kind of work of mine. Its absolutely indescribable, the feeling. I love my readers. No, really, l appreciate them and value their presence over here.

Today E and I bumped into Katy Perry and Russell Brand. Hot couple. E wasnt starstruck, I was and.. Im never starstruck. Again, I digress.

Love you tons.

----------------
"Cancel my subscription to the Resurrection" Jim Morrison.

PASS IT OVER...

2010-04-11T20:59:00.001-07:00

I currently cannot breathe out of my nose. My sense of smell is gone and I'm deeply concerned that it won't be back for a while. This is alarming because I have a very keen sense of smell. Its one of my "things." I am that person who relates smells to past times. Certain smells remind me of certain people. Right now I feel incomplete.

It feels nice to finally feel relaxed after the last couple of weeks. I feel blessed to have some vacation time. I am blessed. We all are.
My sister went thru a tough time after having surgery and is thankfully feeling much better. I was never so shaken up before in my life. Its amazing how the mind just goes into auto pilot when crisis strikes. Suddenly nothing matters aside from family and wellness. It was as if we were all part of a different hemisphere than the rest of the world was a part of. My family is my life. When one of us is in pain, we all are. I'm so glad that she's feeling better. Crying alone feels good sometimes. Crying with your sister is a feeling that is indescribable. No I didn't cry with my ailing sister thankfully I have a bunch of them... Since I'm letting it all hang out- tight long hugs are a must. Is it me or do people not hug as much as they should???
Why is that? I suggest hugging a loved one or someone you care about- I dare you to tell me that it isn't the best feeling in the world.
If you feel differently, lemme know.

Btw, I have this thing I do when I start to read a magazine- I always look at the last page first, then I start reading it from the beginning. How weird am I? I also do it with a book I'm reading.

Did I mention that I'm probably the luckiest person alive right now? I've been working in my idols office. When I say idol, I don't say it lightly. Yes- granted, I tend to be overly dramatic and sometimes I my choice of words are inflated in context (that doesn't make sense, I know, my Professor would lightly scribble "syntax error" on this if it were an essay I turned in- but its not so bite me), but no joke- JD is the bomb in the design world. To be surrounded by talented people, watching and learning the process is beyond exciting!!

I am a shy person. Bet that ones a surprise, right? Its true! If I don't know someone I am very shy and quiet. Once I get to know them, its a different story.
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

RINSE AND REPEAT...

2010-02-24T15:07:00.000-08:00

Lately I step in dog sh*t a lot more than Id care to admit. Its a real pain in the ass. Why does it smell so damn bad?? AND why on earth is it so smelly? EWWW.com

It seems that I am stumped when it comes to writing essays for my English class. I turned one in last week and it was returned to me the other day. My teacher HATED it. I have to rewrite it. Im not happy about it. The assignment required us students to write a 1.5 page essay on a "beautiful view." I dont know why this was pretty much impossible for me to do. I felt completely removed from the topic. I appreciate aesthetic beauty, all I want to do is create beautiful spaces for people to enjoy, yet I cannot write a paper about this beautiful view in the third person.

Heres what freaks me out-- I love to write. Hence, the reason for this blog. Sometimes my posts are better than others, but all in all, writing is a hobby of mine. So, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Maybe I just dont like to be told what to write about? Ugh, who knows. Here I am, back to the blinking cursor, stumped. My teacher thinks Im a tard which makes me feel dumb and illiterate. I do tend to internalize things, so maybe Its just me who feels like a tard, he was very impressed by the fact that I read Lolita and enjoyed it and that UP IN THE AIR didnt really blow me away. So I guess I have some street cred there...

Does anyone want to be in a book club in the NYC area? Id love to have a discussion about LOVING FRANK but Id be willing to try another book too. Lets read a few books, and then pick each others brains :)

Picking a brain sounds gross, doesnt it?

Who the heck came up with that one?

LETS....

2010-02-23T16:37:00.000-08:00

NEWS FLASH- If you are constantly being dismissed, if people tend to be in "a rush" around you quite often and if people dont roll down their car window when they see you, instead they wave-- chances are- you talk too much or youre just plain annoying!!

Dont cry, Im here to help you and make you understand.

You see, there is a certain type of annoying person, I cannot stand to be around. The type of person who just manages to get under your skin regardless of whether theyre standing still or just sharing a thought of theirs.

In THEIR eyes they...

-are always right, when most of the time theyre so far from it.
-are ridiculously interesting, therefore they dont let you get a word in.
-can talk louder than others to drown out other opinions.
-are hilariously funny.
-are the smartest human beings on this planet.

THEY ARE NOT. Dont let them fool you.

When Im around this breed, I just want to scream. I know that I need to be tolerant, but damn its hard! I hate that I have this side to me because I find that Im able to get along with everyone except for this type.

They make hideous jokes and love to talk about documentaries they watch on PBS to wow others. Best part is, when you ask more about this "fascinating" program, they clam up and start to stutter and mumble, aka, busted. Fell free to call these people out on their sh*t!

The inner analyst in me tends to think that as kids they were never given much attention, therefore they tend to overcompensate as adults, becoming outspoken and wordy. The the other part of me thinks that they were an only child and life pretty much revolved around their every move growing up. With that being the case, they constantly think that everyone is just as enthralled with them in the real world.Whatever the situation may be, I dont care. Someone needs to tell them to tighten up before they procreate and make other MONSTERS just like them...

MY ADVICE-

Be cool and make it easy for others to be around you.

NOW--Shake a leg, quit being annoying!!

xoxo

TAKE A SPIN...

2010-02-15T09:49:00.000-08:00

UPDATE: My wipers dont work. Just had to put that out there after last post.

Onto more important business.

CHAT ROULETTE. Okay so here it goes. Im reluctant to even write about it on here because I dont want to direct innocent people its way. Its basically a sea of strangers with web cams. You can engage in convo with them or "next" them, ya know like that MTV dating show. First time I tried it, I was surprised to see just how many creepy weirdos were on there, how shall I put this lightly, exposing themselves in the act of.... ya know.. After nexting a few of those, which btw, shocked me every single time, I found some decent people. Ya gotta figure, 6 out of 10 will be choking the chicken. If you can get past that, then youre all good.

The demographic is somewhat like this.

- Creepy naked dudes wanking.
- College dorm kids acting goofy.
- Keg parties, live.
- Rastas getting their herb on.
- Awkward 16 year olds posing like theyre 25.
- Soldiers and marines looking for some down time entertainment.
- Tortured emo guys with shoe polish black hair.
- Drunk friends chilling.
- The curious normal person.
- Silly 16 year old girls in groups of 3 or more.

Oh, and theres on screen that I came upon that had some girl hanging from a rope from her ceiling? Should I have called 911? nah, NEXT! How the heck do I know where she lives, besides Im sure it was just some form of art in her twisted head.

A and I were lucky enough to get some dude to dance for us without our even asking him! He was a damn good dancer too!

I, has a whole fan base complete with love letters and everything..

Ive heard people say that theyve spent hrs on there without even realizing it. The time flew by.

Thats right- Ill say it again, its the end of the world as we know it.

NEXT!!

REMEMBER DUCK HUNT?

N and I met up with her friend T yesterday. We were all chatting and shooting the sh*t. T made a reference to a recent outing that he went on which proved to be a really great time. He said that it was the first time that he remembered having "good clean fun" since he was a kid at a water park. "GOOD CLEAN FUN" makes me think of that game DUCK HUNT on NINTENDO. OMG I loved that game!! With the plastic gun, I shot those birds in the sky down like it was nobody's bizz. It was a game you never got tired of. Wow, how I miss pure simple fun like that. I miss primitive technology.

Im on the hunt, well like, not for a duck or a gun, just for something simple and enjoyable that doesnt require having my blackberry glued to my hand.

LEMME SEE WHAT I CAN DO...

2010-02-09T16:58:00.000-08:00

Today, the day before the awaited SNOW STORM, I decided that it might be a good idea to finally fix my windshield wipers for good.

A. It was getting harder and harder to see out of my windshield
and
B. I couldnt possibly dream of being immobile tomorrow.

PS- What is up with everyone going into panic mode before a storm? I feel like they always hype it up and in the end its never really that big of a deal. Ugh, alarmists. Watch those words come back to bite me in the UGGS.

Getting service on the phone was a task in itself, After an hr of the run around I was told to just bring it in and hopefully they could fix it. They had the part in stock and that was all I needed to hear. (As if I had nothing better to do today than drive to 11th Ave and 54th street to wait for a screw to be installed.)

Off I went with my lap top in tow to keep my busy while they quickly replaced the screw.

I get there and the manager shows me a stack of papers saying that all of these cars were ahead of me, with the "You have got to be kidding me" look in his eyes. I ignored his reaction and tried to be as sweet as I possibly could. "Ill see what i can do" "but I wont know until later on." This was now 2PM. "Umm, I have to be home by 5" I said timidly. Unamused, he said that I wasnt giving him much to work with. I tried to just buy the parts and have a mechanic in bk do it. He said that it was a bad idea because he wasnt sure what the problem actually was. I enlightened him by saying that it was just a worn out screw that could no longer be tightened. "Maybe Ill just take it home with me, I really cant be stranded tomorrow." The "are you on crack?" look came next. "You cant drive if you cant see."

"UGHHH" I thought to myself "FINEEEE" I said and left it with him.

Now I was stranded on the West Side with no wheels and zero destination. I needed to remain close by in case a miracle was going to happen.

I had emails to send out, phone calls to make and crap to get done.

Guess what I did??

I walked into a TD bank atm area and wrote my emails. Then I walked to 42nd Street, thats right, lazy me- WALKED. There I was, in tourist central, wandering aimlessly. I really dislike that area. It gives me heavy anxiety.

I wasnt feeling THE WAX MUSEUM because once is more than enough in a lifetime if you ask me. So, It was a toss up, DAVE & BUSTERS OR MOVIES?! As much as ski ball excites me, I opted for the movies, DEAR JOHN 3PM specifically.

I bought my soda and popcorn and found a great seat. I am my very own best friend so going alone was a blast. (PS- if youre not youre own best friend, get on that ASAP, if you dont want to hang with yourself, why would others want to hang out with you?!)

An hour into the movie, my phone rang. "Hey its Guy, youre all good to go."

"Oh wow, thank you! Ill be there within the hour" I said. This man was adorable, he kept my deadline in mind and got it done in time. I couldnt possibly first stroll in after the movie was over. Painful as it was, I got up and left the movie. It was a damn good one and i could tell that I was going to be bawling my eyes out by the end, but today there was no time for that.

PAUSE- the dude in that movie is beyond HOT. A total babe. Google the sh*t out of him now! Because I said so!

So-- I got there and was ready to give Guy a big hug and thank him, but he had zero interest. He was being tortured by a new pain in the a**.

I mouthed "Thank you so much" he nodded and I walked to the cashier.

$242.00 Parts- $69 in parts, $173 in labor. Who cares?! Im good to go.

Next task was to get to the mechanic in BK to replace my brakes. Another torturous event. Done and done. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.

I am ready to roll in this blizzard.

(Im sure Ill just end up staying home tomorrow though, so.... Yeah.)

WHY?

2010-01-30T09:43:00.000-08:00

.....Am I still having nightmares about last semesters assignment deadlines? My sleep has been taken over by fear of missing deadlines. Now, I know one doesnt have to be a rocket scientist to read a bit into it and say, it seems like you have anxiety. Doesnt everyone? Now leave me alone and let me dream of unicorns or something.

......Am I following PeeWee Herman on TWITTER? All he does is promote himself. I was thinking his tweets would reveal a word of the day or something, nope. As a kid I loved PEEWEES PLAYHOUSE. Every Saturday morning. His movies rules too. I still think of Large Marge and get scared...

......Am I still able to recite the first paragraph of Robert Services "THE CREMATION OF SAM MCGEE" from 6th grade, yet I struggle to remember my student id number along with my credit card number?? Now granted, this little excerpt makes me appear to be very well versed and educated and all, I still dont get it!

.....Dont we have substantial conversations anymore? Why is it that "shooting the shit" has literally turned to shit. Filler. Nonsense and surface? When was the last time you sat down and had a really nice deep conversation with friends? I had one a few days ago and it felt like human interaction was back for good. Go for it, who cares what people think? Who cares if youre shedding a superficial layer? Just be yourself and I promise you-- you wont be disappointed!

.....Are there only like 2 pink MENTOS in the tropical fruit pack? I dont want to buy a full strawberry pack I just want 2 more, is that asking for too much??

....Is Apple+C copy but Apple+V is paste?

....Do people take advantage of kindness?

....Does my remote control refuse to power off my TV when Im ready to go to sleep? It performs every other action but power.

....Is JOHN MAYER so weird??

MAKING MY WAY BACK...

2010-01-29T12:39:00.000-08:00

Im dedicating this post to S. Thanks for reminding me how much I used to blog. I love blogging dammit. So here I am!

I finally finished LOVING FRANK on the plane yesterday. I highly recommend it. Nancy Horan can write and suck you in. I wont lie, there were some parts that took longer than others to get thru, but all in all, its a great love story with a ton of relevant historical references that really blew me away. Go for it. I cried on the plane. People thought that i was off, but gosh, Im a sentimental emotional girl and I couldnt hold the tears back while reading. Bite me!

I havent played my ukulele in a while and that bums me out so I am going to really try to make an effort to get back on top of it.

US CUSTOMS is annoying. Even when Im doing absolutely nothing wrong going thru it scares me. What is with that huge yellow line that you MUST stand behind?? Scary.com

Lifetime original movies are hilarious. The scripts are ridiculous and the actors are so bad! LMN is my guilty pleasure late at night. Sadly THE PREGNANCY PACT didnt TIVo while I was away :(

Whenever I am about to fly on a plane, I go into this panic that Im going to starve to death. Regardless of whether Ive eaten the biggest meal known to man a minute before boarding, Im still worried that I will be starving in minutes. I usually am. What is that?? Plane rides bring out the inner beast in me. I load up on all the crap Id never allow myself to ingest normally. Pringles, Bounty, Pizza, Chunky bars.. you name it, Im on it.

Turns out that I can do a killer SAMMI from Jersey Shore imitation. I just discovered this amazing talent whilst recovering from a wicked cold and a hoarse voice, dont hate, just ask me to demonstrate.

I love anything thermal. No, seriously.

SO heres a list of things that I need asap.

- a new computer
- a new ipod or even an itouch will do.
- a new clutch for at night.
- speed radar in my car.
- actually, a new car might be better, but Id settle for the cable for my ipod to play in it.
- love letters, or blog comments.
- anonymous mix cd's.
- keratin hair treatment.
- scented candles.
xo.

NO SUBJECT

2010-01-20T20:46:00.000-08:00

I sit here typing with the sorest throat known to man. Sore throats blow. When my throat hurts I click the back of it to scratch it. It doesnt really help honestly and it sounds weird.

Ever since I linked the picture of J-Wow on my blog, the visitors have been pouring in. Exciting as it is, sadly its not because they flock to my reading. BUMMER. They just want to see a picture of her. Thanks?

I just found out that my English teacher is supposedly a hottie. Nice!

Had to cough up 900 big ones to TEK SERVE for data retrieval today. I wanted to cry. Then I remembered that you cant really put a price tag on memories and felt justified. Then I felt sh*tty again. RIP hard drive.

I got a lot accomplished today so that was cool.

Man, my throat really hurts.

A told me last night that contrary to what she tried to convince herself all these years, she finally admits that she is not cool. I wanted to agree with her to make her feel better and say neither am I, but I dunno, all I said was- "Hmm, I think Im cool, but being uncool is kinda cool, no?, the irony of it and all?" She disagreed with that concept but told me that I was, indeed, cool. Glad we settled that one.
What the hell does being cool mean anyway?!

I love my sisters to death. Im so lucky to have them.

Oh by the way... Theres a mountain in Alabama called METH MOUNTAIN. WHY?? Meth is constantly being produced/homemade over there in these abandoned homes and is then sold to users around town. No, really, its true. Google it. DO NOT DO DRUGS. DRUGS kill people and destroy families and lives. If you know someone who needs help, please get them some asap. Watch the in depth INTERVENTION episode on Meth Mountain.

Pina Colada Orbit gum has been a like of mine lately. It smells strong too. Its yummy at first but then gets gross after a while- but isnt that the way everything is in life anyway?

N, Mish, Ey and I had the funniest night ever the other night. Maybe ill blog about it one day.

How was this little post of randomness?

Ill be gone for a bit but will try to pop in and say hello. If I have a profound thought, you know me... Ill blurt it right out for you. While Im gone tho, get yourself into sudoku please?? We can talk about it together!

I will be reading THE FOUNTAINHEAD by Ayn Rand while im gone. Why dont you read it with me and we can have a book club discussion in a couple of weeks.

Love you.

SAY WHAT I MEAN, BUT I DONT MEAN WHAT I SAY...

2010-01-16T11:40:00.000-08:00

Well, its been a week now since my mac ibook crashed on me leaving me completely distraught. When one has over 6,000 photos and just about 7,000 songs this would be an appropriate way to feel. Go ahead now, all at one... You didnt back it up??? The answer is yes, I tried to many times but of course the ext HD that I bought was sketchy so everytime I was mid back up towards the last part an error message would pop up. N was kind enough to offer his help with data retrieval, so my baby has been in his care since Monday. He says I should have it back by today. Gd bless you N. He says that maybe he can salvage the pics. Who knows anymore. Im so sad. Im one of those people who use thei stickie notes too, so consider those recipes, notes and links gone forever into the abyss. Oh man, I need to stop right now, Im getting upset just thinking about it.

The good news is, last week made me more aware of just how much time I spend on the web and being away from it wasnt THAT bad. I caught up on a lot of tv and did a lot of reading. I was also way more active. The hardest part was at night before bed, because sitting on my computer in bed is my way to unwind. Once you have a lap top its so hard to sit by a desk and work the web on a PC.

Okay enough of that. Last week was a busy one. School starts again now so I tried to get it all in, meeting up with friends and stuff. J was visiting from out of town so that was a nice surprise. I really enjoyed the time off and Im kinda sad to get sucked back into school life.

Ive been doing a lot of thinking lately and I came to the conclusion, that I am the type of person who needs time to digest things, no not food, you idiot, thoughts!Hahaha. Im just kidding, dont get all emo, of course I dont think youre an idiot. No but seriously, I find that i need to sit with things before I can really comment on them and really absorb them. Which brings me back to the pause button. Remember that show growing up where... Oh yeah, OUT OF THIS WORLD.. Thats it!! Shed put her two fingers together and freeze the world while she regrouped. That was so genius. Why isnt that an option?? Seriously. Send this post to your tech friends and lets get this going!

PS I LOVE YOU is the worst movie, dont bother with it.

SOMETIMES...

2010-01-11T18:17:00.000-08:00

SOMETIMES... I can talk myself out of a bad dream mid-dream by telling myself not to worry because its "only a dream"
(I know!!! Crazy, right?)

SOMETIMES... I count recite multiplication tables in my head like I did when I was in school just to stay on top of my game.

SOMETIMES... I think about buying a mini dust buster for my car because I believe that I am the only one capable of cleaning it the right way. Hello, remember my pinkberry spill debacle?? Theres still granola lodged in the crevices of the seat side.

SOMETIMES... Well, Im lying, most of the time I still play that dont step on the lines on the sidewalk while Im walking...

SOMETIMES.. I paint myself out to be a complete OCD lunatic when really, Im not so much. Just look inside my bag its a mess!

SOMETIMES... I think a pinky swear is the only legitimate way to seal a promise and trust it.

SOMETIMES... I wonder what Id look like without freckles. Id probably just look albino so never mind.

SOMETIMES... I get these AHA! moments and I wonder what took me so long for it to click?!

SOMETIMES... My right thumb shakes when I type and Im convinced that I have the early onset of Parkinsons and google the sh*t out of it, then I get bored and check my twitter.

SOMETIMES... I wish I was more creative.

SOMETIMES... I find it really hard to commit to stupid things.

SOMETIMES... I listen to traffic on the 1's.

GRATUITOUSLY YOURS...

2010-01-08T16:00:00.000-08:00

There is nothing I love and appreciate more than waking up to see that someone has left a comment on my blog. Its so exciting! Im so glad that people read it and enjoy it (I hope). Please dont stop! I just wish youd let me know who you guys are. Who cares if I dont know you, I dont find it creepy I find it extremely awesome. Someone left me a comment that was so sweet and I really appreciated it, so anonymous, thank you for your kind words!!! You made my day :)

You know those people that smell like food whenever they leave their house? My mom calls it house-a-tosis. I hate that! I dont want to smell your gnarly peppers stewing when you get in my car. EWWW. When you leave your house you should only smell like soap, delicious perfume/cologne or at the very least fabric softener. If you MUST smell like food let it be freshly baked chocolate chip cookies, okay?! GREAT, glad we cleared that one up, its been on my mind for some time.

I am a smell person. Certain smells either rope me in or have me running for dear life.

Which leads me into my next list titled-

THE SMELLS I CANNOT STAND and WHY

- DIRTY HAIR- Need I really explain this one?! Yes sometimes a guy smells good even when he smells gross, and sometimes dirty hair on a super cute guy can be overlooked once or twice (enter the term musk), but as for the ladies, there is just no excuse!!

-ONIONS COOKING- Good luck getting rid of that stench. Comparable to BO.

- MOTHBALLS- Because you can clear a room with that smell. Id rather you walk around with holes in your clothes than have you in my car or within 10 ft of me! I know that its a given when you get older, you load your closet with them, but let it be known, I WILL NEVER CAVE IN and neither should you guys, unless you like to be alone. My sister in law refers to this smell as the birthmark one. How can you not love her just for that?!

-COOL WATER COLOGNE- Because every sleaze ball dude in high school wore that! Lets not go back there, k?

-B.O.- Theres just no excuse, Im sorry. Have you seen the deodorant isle in the supermarket/pharmacy?!! Common, its bigger than the bottled drinks section... Dont give me that its unhealthy lecture either, TOMS OF MAINE makes the "green" kind. Careful not to go overboard though with the vanilla sweet scent, because strong smelling deodorants are a total turn off too, its a tricky one.

-CAR DEODORIZERS- Those tree thingys are vomit inducing.

Im starting to make myself sick, I need to stop.

Im not a tight wad, I promise, no really, Im not. Ill still be your friend and all Im just trying to help!

x to the o's

NO, REALLY, IT IS!!

2010-01-06T22:04:00.000-08:00

IT'S THE END OF WORLD AS WE KNOW IT.

Think about it...

Crime is up
Healthcare is a huge crisis
Heath Ledger is dead
and
Susan Sarandon & Tim Robbins are splitting.

Yep.
We're cooked.

IM LIKE, SO WHAT?

2010-01-05T09:11:00.000-08:00

Food obsessions are gross. Food is gross. If you eat food and get pleasure from it youre gross, unless youre me.
Those rules do not apply to me. I am battling an obsession with OATMEAL and brown sugar.

STARBUCKS is the culprit.

Thank you very much. They can keep the nuts , raisins and other crap they love to put in there, Ill be a big girl and eat it plain as long as I have brown sugar. Not to be confused with white, sugar in the raw, splenda, equal and all that other rat poison. Soft packed brown sugar. K thanks! I suggest you get on this ASAP. Dont say I never give you anything, because I just did!

Why? Because I love you. Weve got a bond going on over here, I value you because you read this and by default you are my best friend.

BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN has also taken over my life. Before I start an online brawl, Id like to put out a disclaimer, these opinions are my own. I am not gd nor am I your higher power, Im just an opinionated girl. His song writing ability blows me away like very few others. CONOR OBERST, BOB DYLAN and ELLIOTT SMITH get this same rise out of me. There are a few others but those were the 3 that came to me off the top of my head. J is like the BRUCE go to. He made me the most insane mix. I am loving it! But as you all know, I tend to pick songs to play the sh*t out of until I detest them and need to retire em for a good month or two. So-- moving along-- those songs right now are THE PROMISE and THE RIVER. Now, I dare you to listen and not feel his raw emotion. Wrap yourself around his words and feel them. No really, go for it! Let me know.

I constantly find myself asking myself, because, hey, im my very own best friend, IS THIS REAL? Now, I understand that this is a very vague statement to make and to share but tough, its my blog so its my rules. Like when I wake up and its snowing for the third day in a row, I ask. IS THIS REAL? Like when my car reads the outside temp as 10 degrees, I ask, IS THIS REAL?? When something is unfolding right in front of me and Im in total shock, I internally ask- WAIT, IS THIS REAL? When I watch JERSEY SHORE and see JWOWs outfits I wonder if its real- and-

GUESS WHAT?? ITS ALL REAL!

Dont let anyone convince you otherwise.

Here are those songs, look how easy I make life for you!!

(I hate posting vids like this because it makes the artists look like theyre dead and these are their tribute videos, but til I learn how to stream music again, this will have to do. I MISS YOU IMEEM ** sad** )

x and o

It even has the lyrics! You can sing along!

YOU DONT KNOW ME....

2009-12-25T15:45:00.000-08:00

Did you know...

-My favorite animal is the zebra

-Seeing loose hair on the floor, in my food or random surfaces grosses me out

-Colored sprinkles excite me

-85 percent of my wardrobe is black

-Ive only driven black cars in my years since ive started driving

-I am not a breakfast person, in fact whenever I do eat bf or wake up super early, its a guaranteed stomach ache for the day

-If I have 2 bars left of battery on my phone, I go into panic mode

-Pink is so not my color, yet my blackberry is pink and so is my scooter

-I only trust myself and a select few to drive bec I am convinced that I will get us there faster

- Ive always wanted to be a nurse from when I was a kid

-I have an obsession with the holocaust, always have

-I was one of those kids who constantly had cuts on their knees

-I won 2nd place in the state wide spanish competition in HS and went to Brooklyn College to receive my award

-I am terrified of squirrels, iguanas, mice, rats and snakes, gerbils and guinea pigs

-I love chocolate chip mint ice cream

-I find it so strange when someone says that they "have gas pains" out loud in public

-I still chew on pen caps

-My watch is always set at 20 min faster than it really is

-I am ridiculously uncoordinated

-I really dont like my middle name

-My bed is my favorite place to be. My sheets, my pillows, all of it is heaven to me.

RANDOM CONFESSION..

2009-12-23T18:16:00.000-08:00

Today, when I was driving my car, all I could think of was stepping outside

and grabbing a chunk of ice to cool off my SCALDING cup of green tea.

It was undrinkable.

All I wanted to do was drink the damn thing.

Then, I got a vision of

a cat peeing in the snow,

the filth of peoples shoes,

and the plain old filthy gutter

and

decided to drink it 20 minutes later.

My tea is ALWAYS too hot.

What a tease.

I also drove around with broken windshield wipers which was impossible because that white gross film of snow residue made it impossible to see out of the window. It sucked. Then I went to the gas station and they tightened the screw and they started to work again. If only I knew that 2 days ago when I drove haphazardly in the blizzard around Brooklyn.

IF YOU DONT KNOW, NOW YOU KNOW...

2009-12-23T13:00:00.000-08:00

How cold is it outside today? Pretty freaking cold.

I did stuff that I had to do which always feels good, ya know-- being productive instead of lagging.

If someone were to cut open my head and take a peak inside I think that it would look like one of those kids rooms you see on tv shows where stuff is just piled up to the ceiling. You know the type that needs a do not disturb sign hanging from the doorknob? The absolute mess, thats about to pile over! Its filled with a plethora of thoughts, lists, reminders and gifts that are owed. ADHD at its best.

Last night the world lost bbm for what seemed to be an eternity. It made me realize just how much on rely on it for communicating. Suddenly I saw what it was like to own an iphone minus the cool apps obvs. It wasnt so bad. Am I running to go get one? NAH. Did I survive without bbm? Yep. Is texting impersonal and annoying at times? Mmhmm. But did my inbox of texts compensate? Yeah.

Today R told me that If I have an easy career in psychology if I decide to leave interior design. It didnt shock me in the least bit. Its not the first time someone has said that to me. I guess I can see it. I like to listen to people, I like to make them feel comfortable-- I can read between the lines and call it like it is. I dont judge. People open up to me, not necessarily close friends or family members either. We are talking all sorts of people. Im known as the vault.

Unfortunately with that comes the downside. I see too much. I can see right thru people and situations. I can tell the good from the bad, but theres always that one that slips in there. Were all human right? Sometimes I wish that I wasnt able to. Sometimes I think being absolutely clueless is the way to go, ignorance is bliss. But -- the good usually outweighs the bad. Besides, who would my friends have to talk to, right? Right!

TAKE A NUMBER.

Download this song. Listen to it. For REAL. In the DARK.

Buy the accoustic version.

ON WITH THE NEW...

2009-12-21T20:10:00.000-08:00

Im still compiling my best albums of 09, I know that Im lagging but ill post it eventually.

This year has brought great joy and sorrow.

Sadly, BRITTANY MURPHY died yesterday of a heart attack at the young age of 32. What a pity. She was a great actress given the roles she took on. Sure I have my doubts about her cause of death, but, Id never comment, because, we should all just let her rest in peace. Its terrible to think that her family and loved ones will be spending the holidays without her. CLUELESS was my favorite movie back in the day. We all quoted her, and so many other great lines from that movie. Poor girl.

It seems that as I get older, I come to meet many different characters and shades of people. Some I could leave at hello, others I wonder how I went on for so long without knowing. I definitely have my share of funny stories to go with the latter. Not to sound heavy, but every day that we are on this planet is a miracle. Every day that we wake up healthy is a blessing. I think we all lose sight of that sometimes. I know that I do. This year, I plan on being more aware of all that I am blessed with on a daily basis.

SOMETIMES.. I wash my hands over a dozen times in a day just to make sure that I am germ free and clean.

SOMETIMES.. I can spend 100 dollars in the pharmacy on toiletries & nonsense when I couldve easily spent 20 dollars getting what I really needed.

SOMETIMES.. I laugh so hard that I wake up with my stomach muscles aching and sore.

SOMETIMES.. I see myself as an old lady recapping my stories to my bored grandchildren while they yawn but listen bec they have to.

SOMETIMES.. I try to explain my sixth sense to people but they just dont understand what I mean.

SOMETIMES.. Im too busy being anti everything to realize that anti isnt always the way to be, but then I see the light again :p

SOMETIMES.. I wonder if Ive lost my writing mojo and wonder if its just been transferred somewhere else.

SOMETIMES.. I bite my lip when Im nervous.

SOMETIMES.. Im convinced that I have arthritis in my right index finger because the top knuckle refuses to crack and it hurts like a mother______.

PS- In a moment of weakness and un-anti (is that even a word?) behavior, I bought a pair of black UGGS. Kill me. im not happy about it but hey, we are all human, not everyone can be perfect all the time!

I KNOWWWWW.

LOSER

A-MUSE ME..

2009-12-12T18:43:00.000-08:00

If theres one band that I consistently love, it would be MUSE. I love a band that is recognizable from the minute you hear them whether you know the song or not. You can always count on them to step it up while remaining true to their sound. MATTHEW BALLAMY was born with a gift. I also like that they dont crank out their albums one after another like so many others do. I feel like when bands do that it compromises the quality of their work.

Their new album rocks. Check it out and if Im wrong tell me, after all-- I welcome a good debate.

TIME IS RUNNING OUT is one of my favorite tracks of all time. Yeah, its old but still off the charts. The latest is called THE RESISTANCE. Im loving UPRISING right now, but the whole album is pretty much awesome! Its the first album that the band actually produced THEMSELVES! This album has more of an electronic sound which I respect, because they arent afraid to experiment.

Someone told me that I was channeling KENNEDY the other night with my new glasses. it didnt feel very flattering. Remember her from back in the day? The MTV veejay? Back when MTV actually played current music videos consistently? I wish we could go back to those days. Reality TV has taken over the world. Dont get me wrong, Im a sucker for that crap. JERSEY SHORE is my latest guilty pressure, but remember when writers actually had to come up with good stories lines and news worthy material? Boy have things changed...

Sadly, Imeem has merged with myspace and Im having a hard time finding another site to stream music with, Ive lost touch w technology due to school, Ill figure it out, but for now, heres some youtube clips :)

and...

SOMETIMES...

2009-12-10T17:35:00.000-08:00

SOMETIMES I want to curl up into a ball under my covers and scream as loud as I possibly can..

SOMETIMES I find myself in awkward situations and have no idea how to get myself out of them..

SOMETIMES I feel like the parking lot attendant at the lot near my school knows more about my schedule then I even do...

SOMETIMES I get the strangest flashbacks out of nowhere, completely unprovoked and they are so vivid...

SOMETIMES I wish I could just press pause in the middle of a convo just to regroup and get my thoughts together...

SOMETIMES THE GOO GOO DOLLS say it best, sometimes theyre just flat out annoying and cheesy...

SOMETIMES I think about doing something really drastic with my hair, like cutting it off or going blonde...

SOMETIMES I honestly believe that I am a SUDOKU mastermind...

SOMETIMES my heart breaks for a woman that I know, who is so sick and yet always manages to smile and ask me how I AM...

SOMETIMES we should all just stop and smell the roses and the fresh air.

PS- Christmas trees sold in the street devastate me. Have we all forgotten how badly we need those trees in the ground? Those trees clean and purify our air. Im no tree hugger but I am rational. Im all for the holiday spirit and all... but wont a fake tree suffice? I find it pitiful after the holidays when all of those trees are left on curbs all over the place rotting away, waiting to be picked up and destroyed. Sometimes they stay there for weeks, even months, discarded like old trash. It hurts my heart. :( I wish people could see that side of the coin. Oh well, to each his own, right?

SOMETIMES..

2009-11-24T16:27:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I wonder what the heck is wrong with everyone.

Sometimes I am so overcome with hunger that I seriously contemplate eating my own arm.

Sometimes I can go weeks if not months not talking to some friends and can pick right back up where we left off.

Sometimes I drop my phone a good three times in one day and am shocked to find that it still works.

Sometimes my dad shocks me with his generosity.

Sometimes I get carried away on web md and self diagnose myself with a million different things only to hear that I am perfectly fine.

Sometimes when Im in class my stomach growls so loud that I get embarrassed.

Sometimes when I drive, I feel like I am the only one on the road who actually KNOWS HOW to drive.

Sometimes I step in dog sh*t and it sucks.

Sometimes I am convinced that I can predict the future. With that being said, Sometimes I am off.

Sometimes CURB YOUR ENTHUSIASM makes me laugh out loud when I am alone in bed.

Sometimes listening is better than speaking.

CREATION (IN BULLET FORM)..

2009-11-15T16:44:00.001-08:00

-I love the MOMA. I think I can move in there for good. Dont even get me started on the book shop and the design store. Ughh, sheer heaven. I had to go to the BAUHAUS exhibit for school. The collection was so extensive and beautifully chosen. I am obsessed with architecture and its background. It amazing how even a simple cheap IKEA chair has historical roots dating back to forever ago. I love when things make sense and have reason. With architecture, its a given. I have so much respect for architects and artists. Imagine, creating a building, a piece of furniture or a masterpiece and the world crediting you for it? How freaking mind blowing is that?!

-The weather was perfect today, the parking situation was not. Driving into the city was another story. Theres nothing worse than getting into a close call with another driver only to find out that you know them. Just a second ago you were screaming "What are you doing???!!" and then the revelation comes and you just want to hide. It wasnt my fault but Im horrified.

-When people around me are happy, I feel happy. When theyre stressed Im stressed. I guess thats the LIBRA in me.

-My screen saver on my phone is a picture of the PILLSBURY DOUGHBOY. It always makes me smile. Its definitely a conversation piece.

- I need a new computer badly. The color wheel has become a staple on my screen. I have 6500 pictures, I wonder if thats why. Ive had a nice run with this one-- a good 3 years but its time for a new baby.

- I could also use a vacation. Just saying...

I think this post is boring so Ill stop now.

AHA!

2009-11-14T14:06:00.000-08:00

Ive had an epiphany.

I am scared to death of my RES 1 class. It gives me anxiety, it makes me feel insecure and it completely overwhelms me. Yet, I am successful at it if you go by my grades. We have one project left which seems like it will be hell to complete and I am scared to death of it. I wonder how many other people feel the way I do when it comes to something new and challenging. I just want to run away and hide from it until its over. I guess feeling scared is a normal way to feel when things are unfamiliar but it doesnt necessarily mean that we are automatically going to fail.

Yep, profound I know.

I watched BEACHES today and was crying 45 minutes into the movie. Rain and sad movies are a perfect combo.

I love twitter.

Long nails make it hard to type on my blackberry. Im over them.

Remember FUN DIP?!

AND IM LIKE....

2009-11-06T13:57:00.000-08:00

So..

This week was pretty interesting. I was meeting a potential client in a cafe to discuss some things and I got there earlier than them. I hate when that happens, especially when you dont even know what this person looks like. A guy walked into the cafe and was looking around... "DAVE?" I say. "No" he answers, "sorry" I say as my face turned beet red. One thing I tend to do is say what Im thinking out loud sometimes not even realizing it. "Wow, that was horrifying" I say to myself except it came out loud. The cafe was pretty full, the people next to me on other tables started to laugh. BTW, we all should be able to laugh at ourselves. He walks over to me and says.. "Are you Patrick?" "No, not today, at least" I answer. We laugh. I vow to keep my head down and wait for "DAVE" to find me, Im done with awkward encounters for the day.

He walks in and says.. "R?" "YES!! thats me!!" Yay. So anyway we sit down and start to talk. Two minutes into our convo a homeless bum walks into the cafe and starts screaming at the top of his lungs. " Now listen here everyone.. I love MICHAEL JACKSON! I need to see his movie!! THIS IS IT!!!! SO I NEED THE MONEY TO BUY A TICKET. DO U UNDERSTAND?? SOMEONES GOTTA GIMME MONEY NOW" Best thing about NY is that no one is really fazed by this stuff. they hardly even look up from their skim chai lattes. At this point the yuppie manager comes out and tries to escort the bum out of the cafe calmly telling him that he need to go NOW. The bum continues to scream and stumble saying that hes not going anywhere, that he will "kick his white ass" if he touches him. Back up arrives, his felloow co worker whos huskier but has a calmer demeanor. They threaten to call the cops, the first guy starts counting to ten. He says he "aint scared" and that hes "been to jail" before. He continues to taunt the manager mercilessly.

I go back and forth thinking to myself, cant we all just give him the 12 bucks and make him a happy man?? I look around and half the patrons are staring, the other half are doing their own thing unfazed. I quietly reach into my bag for cash but decide to stay out of it. Thing is, I hardly know "Dave" and I dont want to disobey the cafe manager.. I actually feel a tad nervous that the guy is packing heat and that we are all going to die and go to hipster heaven together in this cafe. They finally get him out. I feel sad and regretful not helping him out. I support the ARTS, this man just wanted to see the movie high as a kite. I promise myself that if Im ever in that situation again, because its likely that I will be, (weird stuff always happens to me) I will treat the man to the movie and buy him snacks for the show. I might even friend him on Facebook! Today, even the homeless carry cell phones, surely hed have a fb page. No?!

THE END.

Thats just ONE of the things I experienced that day. You get what Im saying right??

DEEP THOUGHT of the DAY-

One thing I will never understand is when people feel the need to fight each others battles. It shows poor character. I understand loyalty and camaraderie but people take it to another level sometimes. Especially grown adults, its like grow up!! I guess what Im trying to say is that people really shouldnt get involved in other peoples gripes and choose sides its so juvenile.

SOMETIMES...

2009-11-01T18:36:00.000-08:00

SOMETIMES I feel like Ive abandoned this blog and its lost its point and direction.

SOMETIMES I miss consistently blogging, no actually I always miss it.

SOMETIMES my manicure lasts for 2 days others it can last for a full week.

SOMETIMES I put rollers in my hair for an hour only to leave my hair looking like it did bef I even bothered 20 min later.

SOMETIMES people let you down and there's nothing you can do about it.

SOMETIMES I can eat a full box of ICE CUBE gum in an hour. Seriously, those things are brilliant,

SOMETIMES catching up with old friends can provide a ton of laughs.

SOMETIMES I honk the sh*t out of slow drivers for a good 15 seconds.

SOMETIMES I want to throw out my ipod and start all over.

SOMETIMES I feel like my life is being narrated aloud as I go thru my daily motions. "Rachel woke up at 9 am feeling...."

SOMETIMES I want to paint my room in PAUL SMITH stripes of color.

SOMETIMES you just have to ride the wave.

LISTED..

2009-10-08T16:59:00.001-07:00

ONE TREE HILL is my newest obsession. Just finished season one and Im hooked.

DRAFTING seems to be all that I do lately. Floor plans, elevations, 1/2 in. scale, built ins- blah blah blah.

GOSSIP GIRL seems un-watchable lately. Have I just become cynical?

BROTHERS AND SISTERS had me bawling my eyes out last episode.

My black boots make me happy.

KEIHLS lip balm does the same. Are anyone else's lips starting to feel chapped now? I love fall!

Silver nail polish was a bold move on my part this wk. My nails look like they were dipped in chrome paint. gotta change it up!

I am a lover of new thin black socks. I spend on my socks. Everyone should, in my opinion- youre in them all day!!

A drawer filled with batteries makes me smile. Especially when theres a superfluous amount of AA's!!!

I highly recommend the book LOVING FRANK by NANCY HORAN. Its a love story about FRANK LLOYD WRIGHT- I wont spoil the rest. Whether you care for his work or not, its a great story. The writing was exceptional, very scenic. I am officially obsessed with him. It doesnt hurt that Im studying his field either, total coincidence but all the more exciting and satisfying.

One day when I own a yacht and I travel all over the MED and the rest of the world aboard it, I will name it
OFFSHORE ACCOUNTS because I think that name is pretty freaking genius. Does anyone else find themselves thinking of pet, boat and freebee kids names in their spare time? I sure as hell do!

ON WITH THE NEW..

2009-09-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I'm back. Its been almost a month since Ive blogged, but alas I am here.

I just completed a big homework assignment, well Im not actually completely done with it but Im damn close and it feels good. It also feels good to be back to day to day life in NY. The summer was nice, dont get me wrong but Im definitely embracing the fast paced change.

My Thursdays officially blow though. I packed all of my classes into one day which means I get a huge stomachache right about now thinking about tomorrow and what it holds for me from 8- 5. I get all of one 30 minute break in between. YIIKESS.

Enough with that. Today I went for lunch to celebrate my sisters b-day, which was on the 10th. We went to this really cool place uptown that changes its decor, style and menu according to the seasons. The food was okay, very pumpkin-y and fig-y, very FALL, still a cool idea.

Am I weird???? I love brussel sprouts. RANDOM.

Im all about voice-notes lately. I love sending them and getting them. So much more personal and honestly, its a lot easier to record than it is to type when driving. I highly encourage black berry users to embrace this feature.

Some pop culture-

LADY GAGA bores me.

TAYLOR is cute as a button.

KANYE needs rehab, because well, anytime a celeb falters they get sent away

Thank you PATRICK SWAYZE for teaching me the bowling pin formation dance. My sisters and I always loved to do that dance together, Im so sad that hes gone. DIRTY DANCING is and always will be one of my most favorite movies of all time. RIP.

I dont give a sh*t about JON and KATE because theyre just annoying. Hes ugly, shes moody and the kids are just kids.

Hmm, what else...

When I was younger I used to always ask my friends "You know when...... and it kills??" all the time. I think Im going to introduce that into my blog posts when I remember to and if I remain a blogger.

So here it goes....

You know when youre in the dark and you get up to go to the bathroom and on your way back, you stub your toe on the bed frame AND it KILLS??? Yeah that happened to me last night. Im totally getting a black toe nail from that one.

TRACTION..

2009-08-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a really long day followed by a sleepless night. I hate waking up feeling hung over due to insomnia. But today is another day, lets hope a little sun cures my grogginess.

Summer has brought out the creative side in me. Ive been painting and creating a ton. Made N's wedding cake. Im loving the way I feel after I finish a project and have something to show for it. AC Moore and Michaels have become my favorite places to roam. Im not used to these stores in NY, I guess the shore does have its rewarding bonuses aside from the ridiculous amounts of jug handles and 4 way intersections!

Its all silly stuff but still, it feels good to have that outlet. Color makes me happy. Working with it, being surrounded by it and seeing it makes my heart full. I know that sounds weird, but its so true..

Ive been obsessed with CHRIS VOLPE for the last 2 days. Hes my usual type of folk singer. I like his sweet raspy voice. His lyrics get to me. I love that he plays the harmonica too. Long instrumentals with it too. HARMONICAS and ME= swoon. Ive heard his stuff before and always liked the sound. The song Im hooked on right now is SHOES. Not for everyone. A pretty one. PANDORA actually sent it my way. GO figure!!

Here ya go.. Have a nice day lovelies.

Excuse the quality of the pictures, but they were taken with zero effort on my blackberry :p Probably shouldnt post em, but hey, spur of the moment.

THE SONG.

OH, DONT OVERFLOW...

2009-08-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

Its strange because it feels like the summer is finally here, yet its mid August and actually almost over. Funny thing is everyone I speak to feels the same way. The weather has warmed up. Weve had some solid beach days and some great parties. I was starting to forget how much fun summertime is.

Speaking of the beach, anyone who knows me knows that I am painfully pale. I do not tan, I BURN in the sun. I am that person that you cringe from when you see them in a bathing suit. I am white. Casper style. I was that child that needed to be doused with sunscreen. I am the one who had sun poisoning after going to GREAT ADVENTURE with camp. Im the one who had the beet red nose after a day at the beach. Im convinced that super white peeps have a lower physical tolerance to the sun too. Meaning when its super hot out I feel moody, overheated and cranky because I physically feel overwhelmed. This does not happen to my fellow bronzed friends.

With all that being said, Ive become a beach bum! We are talking 3 days in a row!!! This is huge for me. HUGE. Going to the beach for me is usually a hassle. I like to be clean so I hate having sand in every crevice of my body (slight ocd, hehehe). Because, I really need to stay out of the sun, I basically need a moving truck to get there. Whereas my friends can just decide to go to the beach on a whim, yours truly needs to pack a hat, a beach chair, an umbrella, sunscreen blah blah.. THEN I need to find a muscle man to dig that umbrella into the sand and adjust it every couple of hours... I need some serious preparing to do. Its exhausting. I did all of that on FRIDAY, it was well worth it. I had a blast. On Saturday I was more melllow about it.
By yesterday, I went with just a towel that I was willing to share with anyone who needed it. I was covered in sand, it was in my bag, my hair, my phone-- my lip gloss!! I didnt give a damn. Yeah my nose is burnt, yeah Im feverishly picking the sand out of my keyboard but who cares. I love the beach. WHO KNEW?? (enter standing ovation)

I know that I havent really been blogging that much and when I have been, Ive left out the music picks but Im here to recommend a new band courtesy of E. He introduced me to HEY CHAMP. Theyre CHICAGO based. Electro pop-y sounding. The song is COLD DUST GIRL. Its a great summer jam. Really upbeat, easy to learn the words to (because theres all of like 20), and fun. Give it a listen!! If this song doesnt lift your mood for at least a second, i dont know what to tell ya! :p

Gold Dust Girl - Hey Champ

THIS ABOUT SUMS IT UP..

2009-08-03T17:54:00.000-07:00

PAINTING.

MY SISTERS/SISTER IN LAW.

PILATES (sometimes).

DOG FISH HEAD.

CRAFTS.

GETTING LOCKED IN BATHROOMS.

TWINS.

UKULELE.

PORCHES.

RED.

WEDNESDAY.

BROKEN PHONE CHARGERS.

J & F.

SONGS ON REPEAT.

FRECKLES.

MOSQUITO BITES.

RAIN.

TEARS.

WINDOW DRESSING.

LAVENDER.

WELCOME BACKS.

LET DOWNS.

HUGS.

AND SO ON AND SO FORTH...

2009-07-18T17:39:00.000-07:00

Every now and then theres nothing more satisfying than getting into a deep philosophical conversation with people Ive only met minutes before. Last night I had one of those. I love to hear other peoples aspects and views on the world. Especially when theyre opinionated. One of the things that was discussed was substance abuse and drug addiction. We touched on everything, whether its really a genetic thing, environmental, learned behavior etc.. J specialized in this field which really made it a lot more interesting. The one thing that we did come to a conclusion to was that, its a terrible problem that affects all age groups, social classes and genders needing an escape from reality, trauma and emotional stress (Of course these were our own opinions.)

We also touched on the word -
NORMAL

I despise the word normal. Who decides who is normal and by what standard is anyone considered normal? Does some worldwide achievement test filled with multiple choice survey questions determine normalcy? Ive decided that the word normal should be wiped out of the dictionary when used to describe people. I think that BALANCED should replace normal. (Can you tell that Im a LIBRA??) Yep. I am and Im sure as hell not normal. Id like to say that Im balanced but who knows. Point is, normal needs to go.

On a separate note. My brother in law comes into my room every morning and looks in my mirror. He doesnt have a mirror in his room and I hope her never gets one because hes hilarious! He also values my opinion and listens when I give him wardrobe advice so in my book hes ace!

BIG THRILLS..

2009-07-03T20:53:00.000-07:00

So its been a while. Lets see, MICHAEL JACKSON died, apparently he is worth more now than he was when he was alive. Such a pity. Poor FARRAH FAWCETT, she took the back seat on the very same day. The TV cant get enough of this story while FARAH is long forgotten about.

Ive been riding my pride and joy lately. My scooter. Not just any scooter for that matter. My pink STELLA. Gosh I love that thing. Today was my little sisters birthday. Happy B little S!!

I have this odd feeling that Im getting sick, lets hope Im not. Had a blast yesterday. Today was pretty chilled too. Im all about letting things just happen and rolling with them. I find it to be the best way to be. Thinking too much about stuff becomes exhausting.

Im obsessed with SUFJAN STEVENS again. I always love him but sometimes hes all I listen to, and now thats whats been doing with me. Love the SEVEN SWANS album. His voice is so distinctive. Its just so soothing and instantly puts me into a mellow happy mood. If SIZE TOO SMALL doesnt do it for you, I dont know what will. Of course TO BE ALONE WITH YOU is a classic, but THE DRESS LOOKS NICE ON YOU is just (100 percent)...... THE TRANSFIGURATION, yummy. Im going to post some of them at the end of this entry and you tell me if youre not instantly calm and nostalgically warm.

PASSION PIT is on the rotation too for when Im in the mood for some fun tunes. This years new MGMT if you ask me.
Believe it or not I really like the new BLACK EYED PEAS album- THE E.N.D when im in the right mood. Meaning, in the car, blasting it with people.

Ive been playing my ukulele again. I love that thing. Thats all I really need. My uke, my scooter, my music and the special few people who make my days brighter. Okay, okay and ICE CUBES gum.

Ciao for now.

The Dress Looks Nice on You - Sufjan Stevens

Size Too Small - Sufjan Stevens

SUMMER JAMS

Sleepyhead - Passion Pit

Little Secrets - Passion Pit

A LIST...

2009-06-12T20:36:00.001-07:00

-Anything Pastel.
-Swing dancing.
-My new twin niece and nephew.
-Songwriting.
-Helium balloons.
-Batting cages.
- Manicures with S.
-Elton John.
-Smittenkitchen.com
-Soft skin.
-AUDEREEEEYYY.
-Self defense.
-Mederma scar cream.
-Cold sheets and pillows.
-Updates.
-Orchids.
-Cupcakes.
-Beautiful photography.
-N's engagement/soon to be wedding/oh em gee.
-Shell mirrors.

SINK, SYNC AND STINKS..

2009-06-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

On Sunday I went for lunch with A and I to MORANDI. It was such a nice day and my limping was in full effect. Before we left, i went to the ladies room and placed my phone on an empty soap dish. Follow me on this one. All restaurants use soap in dispensers right?? Bar soap is now considered the epitome of grossness, right??
WRONG. As I was leaving, I picked up my phone to find the back end of it wet. I dried it off on my dress because apparently McNally is also on the save the planet plan and only has blowers to dry your hands with in his restrooms. Im bored with my story already, are you??

Anyway... Later that night, my phone rang and I tried to answer it only to hear nothing on the other end. I took the battery out (ooo I hate doing that, it takes forever for the damn thing to reboot, but ok, I did it) and still, after the 20 minute reset, there was still nada. Oddly enough though, my BBm and texting went unscathed. Weird, right?

So fast forward, I havent had a phone that actually can answer calls or make them until tonight. Of course everyone who called me was not on my bbm list nor could I text them. It was those other types of calls. Schools, offices, doctors etc.. Yep, FML. The only thing worse than screening calls is holding your phone in your hand while it incessantly rings and theres not a darn thing you can do about it. Especially when you really needed to take that said call.

But tonight, Im back in action. POCKET MAC stinks. I backed up my phone contacts and all that stuff and of course it refuses to sync with my new berry leaving me with maybe 40 contacts from 2007. That program has a brain of its own. This ordeal has been exhausting. BUT... I can now answer my phone, so like... call me, because I dont have your numbers. Nikki, I have your moms number, go figure, pocket mac loves her but I dont have yours?? WTF?? Oh and I have the valet number for the south tower in turnberry too. See, Im all set life aint too bad, right??

As a sidenote, Id like to thank the true special people who resorted to texting me and actually answering my calls from my obscure house land line phone number. I certainly wouldnt have answered, haha, Just kidding, okay half kidding. ; )

OMG, by the way, someone shot someone in THE HOLOCAUST MUSEUM today. What is this world coming to? What a disgraceful thing to do. Lets not shoot people okay? And if you must, please take it outdoors really far away, K?
GREAT.

gnite.

WINTER SPRING SUMMER OR FALL...

2009-06-03T18:50:00.000-07:00

Heres what Ive decided post surgery and after this past week of hell that Ive made it out of it one piece and 7 incisions...
(holy run on sentence)

1. Your true friends are the ones who care. The ones who manage to show up for you regardless of the circumstance, hissy fit, drifting period, mood swing or inconvenience, are the ones worth keeping and treasuring. This doesnt mean that other friends diminish in value or anything like that at all, those friends are still loved. Its just that sometimes people surprise me, its not very often, (therefore, I am putting this down on paper/blog) but they do, some for the better some for the not so better. Im lucky to have great friends and family.

2. Oxycontin was something I thought only junkies in the midwest took and abused as a drug. Turns out this its a completely legitimate pain killer prescribed post substantial surgery. Turns out this oh so routine operation was pretty f*cking serious. Im not sure how I feel about my doctors playing it down to a simple routine 1,2, 3 er but I guess they had my best interest at heart. Had I known just how painful this last week was going to be, I wouldve never ever been so matter of fact about it.

3. The OR looks exactly like it does on TV, personally, they can do a better job with the music, but still-- it worked out alright..

4. Stitches hurt like a mother f*cker. Whomever tells you otherwise is a liar.

5. Elton John is great trance tunes when trying to fall asleep on pain meds, Underrated dude.

6. We need to thank gd when it comes to being able to go to the bathroom alone, bend down to pick up something off of the floor and sneezing without pain being involved.

7. IV sites are the closest I will ever get to becoming a junkie in real life. Those bruises are the real deal. Arnica, the homeopathic remedy for these bruises totally alleviates the embarrassing track marks left behind post op.

8. Belly buttons are a pretty big deal. Im thankful that mine is still a confirmed innie and pretty freaking cute.

9. Im vain as F*ck. Kill me.

IVE GONE SOFT...

2009-05-23T11:02:00.000-07:00

Ive been a flop lately as far as the blogging thing goes, well actually with a lot of different things. I have no excuse other than just being really wrapped up in my own stuff. Sometimes I contemplate ending this blog. I hate not giving anything I work on my all and the blog seems to have fallen thru the cracks and it saddens me. But, for some reason ending it seems so tragic, so for now, Ill write when I feel like I have something to contribute thats worth reading. Its weird because not a day goes by that I dont think about my blog.

In rereading that last paragraph I got a pit in my stomach. I cant end this baby. Im just flakey lately. Im here and I dont plan on going anywhere!!!

Whoooo..

On Wednesday Im going in for surgery. Nothing serious but still, scary as all hell. Ive never been put to sleep and Im terrified of just that. The planning and the appts that have gone into this procedure have been exhausting and draining. I cant wait for it to be over with. Ill have some sweet scars to concoct some stories over. I bought myself a present for the occasion too. 800 thread count sateen sheets. Hollerrr!!! I was long overdue for some new sleep garb. I love soft things. As a matter of fact, if someone were to ask me to describe myself and the things I love, my love for all things soft would be a detrimental detail Id need to include. White marshmallows, flannel, cotton balls, down comforters, cashmere, soft skin... you name it, I love it.

I watched the season finale of GREYS ANATOMY last night after catching up on the last 4 episodes and holy hell did it hit me hard. Goose bumps like whoa!! But why, oh why has they destroyed Merediths face with collagen, botox and restylane? It really irks me that TV and the media has caved to the superficiality of the vain. Dont get me wrong, Im one of the vainest people out there, I try to maintain and take care of myself but Tv is out of control. Her face is so shiny and plumped up to a point where she looks like a giant helium balloon!! Its so sad. Why cant society just accept and embrace the beauty of natural aging??

Okay Im done with my rant. Hope everyone enjoys their MEMORIAL WEEKEND. Remember if youre not hot dogging (or veggie dogging or corn dogging, whatever dogging) youre not celebrating.

xo

AHEMM..

2009-05-20T14:42:00.000-07:00

I think its official- I suffer from allergies.

How emo is that??!!

I hate feeling like Im sick when in reality Im not.

I have to keep reminding myself that its just dorky allergies.

SOMETIMES...

2009-05-11T18:59:00.000-07:00

SOMETIMES I can be so pumped and energized and like the drop of a hat it all goes south and Im exhausted..

SOMETIMES I overuse the word exhausted...

SOMETIMES I just feel flat out ugly. Like uglier than WOOGY in SOMETHING ABOUT MARY...

SOMETIMES I answer too quickly...

SOMETIMES people just rub me the wrong way. Its not even like theyve done anything wrong to me, its just this feeling that I get. Im usually dead on with stuff like that.

SOMETIMES Im wrong though hehehe..

SOMETIMES I wont listen to my voicemail for like 3 days even when I see that I have messages, which at times becomes a problem... I really dont like checking my voicemail..

SOMETIMES I swear im never going to do something again and five minutes later Im right back where I started, doing it (again)..

SOMETIMES I download some really cheesy old music and listen to it over and over again, my most recent casualty? HOLD YOUR EARS... JOSH GROBAN- YOU RAISE ME UP.... (still wincing,I know, I know)

SOMETIMES I use certain words too freely without considering the consequences of the usage... I do that a lot. Cryptic, much?

SOMETIMES either you know or you dont, and if you dont know, you just dont... Right???

Today I went with I downtown to shop for a dress for this weeks festivities if I even end up making it to them. From the get go we were bitching about having to shop. I love shopping for others. Shopping for myself has become a chore, something I dread. We were two sourpusses complaining and sulking for a good 2 hours until we rewarded ourselves with a looong lunch filled with some extra curricular beverages. Suddenly we were happier. Ended up finding 2 dresses. Of course I finds a dress within the first 20 minutes of the excursion. El and I had some good random BBM chat going on, B had me laughing, R too, theyre my faves to shoot the shit with, What would I do without my blackberry? Id probably be really codependent and friendless... Wait, Im those 2 anyway, arent I? Hahahaha, JK.

Aright, Im EXHAUSTED from blogging--

x to the o

LAZY DAZE...

2009-05-04T09:09:00.000-07:00

I hate when its gross outside. Rain affects my mood. People who are hyper on a rainy day bother me. On rainy days I listen to sad music. Im starting to paint myself as a mood person I think. Im really not, I guess im just cliche sometimes, hehehe. Okay I just lied because im listening to OKKERVIL RIVER- BLACK and its not maybe sad. More agro!!

Going for lunch with El and R, Im so excited to actually sit down and enjoy lunch and my time with friends. We always laugh when were together. Freedom is something ive really come to appreciate since starting school again. Alas its over and I cant wait to catch up with everyone. S!! Cant wait for WED!!

I had a really nice weekend.

This week is going to be a rough one. Im nervous.

I wish I had a magnolia tree in front of my house, ugh- so beautiful. Im kinda getting sick of cherry blossoms, theyre a dime a dozen around here. My neighbor around the block has one and sometimes I want to go there, chop it down and replant it in front of my house. How weird am I??

But if I were normal would you really give a damn about what I had to say??

Yeah, thought so.

Black - Okkervil River

BIG TIME FLOP..

2009-05-03T14:05:00.000-07:00

I think this mightve been the longest ive gone without blogging since inception of this mess of words.
For whoever still reads it and checks in with it every now and then thanks for not giving up on me completely.
School just ended and my life has just been really hectic and busy. I think im back in action though.

I love hearing about people who read my blog. Its so motivating and makes me feel like all I want to do is blog. The question is-- if I dont really have much to say, do I write anyway? Like am I supposed to write about nothing exciting? Like today I ate tuna tartare for lunch?? Does anyone want to know that??

Last night we went out for I's birthday and it was a really fun night. I found out that a lot of people stop by this blog every now and then and I got super stoked! Thanks S, B and J!!

A, I and myself had an all out singing session to AIR SUPPLYS- IM ALL OUT OF LOVE. I love that song. I love stumbling upon an oldie yet a goody.

We were talking about the dread and doom brought on by birthdays. I am KNOWN for CRYING EVERY SINGLE YEAR ON MY BIRTHDAY. Sometimes I wake up and get it out of the way, other times the tears strike mid day. This year though, I made it all the way to 5:00 before the flood hit. Its not that im sad about my birthday its just that I always feel extra emotional on the day for unknown reasons. I will admit that getting older is starting to feel sucky though. I think crying on your birthday should be a required act. Let the record show that this past year, I had one of my best birthdays to date, thanks to some really special people in my life. Wow, how corny did I just get?

Ive been obsessed with this jam lately. Perfect pool side song. So here you go my lovelies-

KINGS OF LEON are awesome. They are one band that I never get sick of. I actually read a really great article about them in last months ROLLING STONE magazine. I am starting to like that magazine again. Its a bit mainstream for my snobby self but last months articles were intriguing. Especially the one about HULK HOGAN. So yeah. Talk about monday morning quarterbacking!

xo

All Out Of Love - Air Supply - Air Supply

knocked up - lykke li & kings of leon

IF...

2009-04-06T21:54:00.000-07:00

I say it enough maybe Ill actually believe it. (Scratch your heads, thats all I will say.)

Im restless. Ive bitten my fingernails down to the core. Im tired and yet, I cant sleep. Why did it have to rain all freaking day today? I have a million things to do and yet have done none of them. Just took a tylenol PM. I need a car wash desperately. I dont want to go get one tomorrow. I dont want to go to school either. Not tomorrow not Wednesday. Boo. Im nervous about a few things. I need a vacation.

Please let the weather be nice tomorrow and everyday day forward. I need sunshine.

More soon...

SOMETIMES....

2009-03-31T17:07:00.000-07:00

SOMETIMES I feel like I speak a completely different language than everyone else, yet we all use the same words.

SOMETIMES my bag goes flying off of the front seat when Im driving dumping all of its contents all over the floor.

SOMETIMES I wanna cry when that happens.

SOMETIMES I randomly volunteer information about myself to people I hardly know.

SOMETIMES I feel like a persons ringer on the cell tells you a lot about that person.

SOMETIMES my index fingertip goes numb for a solid 2 minutes and it freaks me out.

SOMETIMES my little sister is the funniest human being in the world.

SOMETIMES my dad mispronounces the silliest words like human bean (being). He speaks his own language for sure.

SOMETIMES I find the MAGIC 8 ball to be so dead on.

SOMETIMES I have bloggerhea, sometimes I dont.

STICKS AND STONES...

2009-03-30T15:36:00.000-07:00

I am back and alive. After a grueling week of some crazy issues (re: title post) I can safely say that Ive been through hell and back. I experienced that craziest physical pain of my life this past week. This experience included crying, tossing my cookies, (more on that later) blood analyzed, painkillers prescribed and a ton of "how are you feeling?" phone calls and flowers.

Everyone together now... AWWW..

On Friday I went to a specialist to see what the hell was wrong with me. I met with the doctor who was not my fave by any stretch. Sometimes I can just tell right away if Im going to like someone. I did not jive well with her at all. At the end of my exam, I started to feel super nauseas. You know--That feeling you get right before you expel your guts kind. Am I the only one that is absolutely terrified of throwing up? Its usually a reflex thing for me to cry after puking. I know, I know, Im a baby. How do bulimics do it?? Throwing up is so scary!! K, back to the story. So, shes talking to me and Im hearing nothing, all I want her to do is get the hell out of the room asap so that I can be sick in the most covert way possible. "So, we will see on Monday how you are doing and take it from there, we can do......" At this point im only hearing muffled sounds because Im too focused on finding the damn trash can. "I hate painkillers" I think to myself as my stomach churns due to its starved state... She finally leaves and theres no can in sight, only a dinky little sink. Now Im sweating because im about to loss it and theres nowhere to turn. I run out of the room heaving only to be stranded in a maze dying and trying to hold it together.

"F*cking Percocet" I think to myself.

I finally stumble upon a trash can in the hallway and lose it in a quiet corner. After gaining some composure I scurry to the waiting room to find my mom. "Lets go" I say as I try and act casual while bolting for the door. "What did she say??" my mom asks, "Ill tell you in the car" I mumbled as she stared into my bloodshot eyes. SHe looked at me patiently waiting for me to give her the low down on the exam.

"Mom?" I say to her as we are getting into the car.
"Yes?"
"We can NEVER go back there, okay?"
"Okay, why, whats wrong, what did she say?"
"I just puked in her garbage"
"Oh wow, lets go get you something to eat" she says.

My mom RULES.

So Yeah... Not my proudest moment -- by any means. Im actually really embarrassed about it. Im normally an upstanding citizen. I flush toilets, I hang up my clothes in dressing rooms, refill the toilet paper if need be....
But hey... Remember? I said I had an empty stomach.. Damage wasnt that bad.

Painkillers will definitely bring out the inner exorcist in all of us if taken on an empty stomach. I will not be going back to that doctor any time soon, thats for sure.

Wow, Im disgusting.

Hope everyone had a splendid weekend.

xo.

BUT WHY??

2009-03-22T15:27:00.000-07:00

Today I saw a woman with the worlds worst panty line known to man. We are talking a size small panty on an ass that was easily a LARGE. I pointed it out to S and I. They were also horrified. Why did the woman not buy the right size? I just dont understand?? It looked painful. It got me thinking.. Why do people do the things they do??

WHY...

Why do some people put on their blinker when theyre making a turn and forget to take it off?? That noise is so annoying, how can anyone forget??

Why do people take 300 hours to pull out of a parking spot?

Why do people pretend like they dont care when they really do?

Why do people write KK when its really just OK or K?

Why do people other than nurses wear white sneakers?

Why do sick people dig into a plate of food that everyone is sharing without blinking an eye?

Why do teachers always dress so badly?

Why does STAPLES employ the meanest people as salespeople?

Why do people wear sweat socks with Birkenstocks?

Why do people other than nurses wear white sneakers?

Why do men wear turtlenecks?

Why do bad drivers insist on driving?

WHYYYY??

GROSSNESS...

2009-03-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

Is it me or is having a sore throat worse that having fever? In my book a sore throat is the worst thing to have aside from a stuffed nose or a paper cut on your knuckle. Guess what? My spring break came to a halting end this AM when I woke up with my throat on fire. Holler!! Well not really, more like whisper.

Went for lunch today with G and R. I miss the shit outta G, it was so great to hang. R and I ordered what we thought was the dreamiest thing on the menu. It was a flop. We started talking about what we planned on doing on Sunday. R chimes in and says, Sundays are my day to relax, "by relaxing she means running on the treadmill for 3 hours with a weighted vest on on a 4.0 incline." I tell G. I dunno, my idea of a relaxing Sunday is like going to the movies after sleeping late or to a Museum or a bookstore. I love R. Gd bless her she has endurance of an energizer bunny on crack.

Im going to miss having the freedom that I enjoyed so this week. Back to school I go.

The other day I went to SAKS and met R and El. I detest dept stores when Im shopping for myself*. They give me severe anxiety. If you want to really kill me youll drag me to BLOOMINGDALES, to me thats cause for instant suicide. Id rather be sent to Guantanamo Bay for water boarding before entering that hole. So anyway-- I finally meet up with them on the shoe floor bec R had a crazy card that gave you 20% off of everything. I plop down next to them looking all disheveled after braving 4 floors alone. They are each surrounded by boxes and boxes. Their salesperson is nowhere to be found. I figured Id save the day and get my own salesperson. I pick them out decide which ones I want and boom, their salesman drops the bomb-- "Oh no, I cant help her, shes working with someone else, she cant get the discount sorry." It freaking figures. Only Me!! They start laughing at me because they can see how defeated and confused I am.. I had to plot operation "get rid of my salesperson ahora." I finally did only to see that the salesperson still would not help me. R had to convince him to finally run my transaction through and he complied. I pulled out my gift card for $400 and he said "im sorry, its expired" Only me people. I had to go to customer service for 20 minutes to get it sorted out. By the time I settled the shoe debacle and got down to the other floor to get my jeans that I had picked out, the salesperson had gone on break and hid my stuff. SEEE!! This stuff only happens to me. By the time I got outta that hell hole I needed 10 drinks. No bueno.

Hmm what else? I guess thats it. Oh, btw, I watched PRESIDENT OBAMA on JAY LENO by my mom today. Has anyone else noticed how huge the mans hands are? If you ask me, I kinda feel safer with a huge handed president. Dude can carry the world in them or drop us all on our asses!! Either way I guess.

WOOOHOOO... THATS NOT MY NAME.

2009-03-17T18:11:00.000-07:00

Thats right bitches, (did I just really say that??) Im on spring break and Im loving it.

I love going back to sleep and waking up late with zero anxiety.

I love planning my day how I WANT to plan it and not around some annoying assignment.

I love going out and not having a worry in the world, with regards to school, at least.

I love eating sushi at 2:00 with my sister and then going for an obnoxiously expensive manicure and pedicure afterwards together. Recession? Whats that?

I love having a work out routine again.

I love that tomorrow is Wednesday and Im doing whatever it is I feel like doing!!

Okay enough. Tomorrow is supposed to be 60 degrees outside. I cant wait. I love spring weather.

I just read that Natasha Richardson was in a tragic skiing accident. The facts are nowhere to be found. Different online news surces are saying crazy things. One said that she is brain dead and on life support and another said shes okay but is just headed back home on a private plane. Apparently she took a spill on a beginner slope and fell on her head. They say she got up and was feeling fine but was comlaining an hour later of head pain and was rushed to the hospital. This is so sad to me. I hope shes okay. What is wrong with the media, how do they spread such conflicting stories??? Yikes.

Someone is outside stopped at the light by my house with COLDPLAYS- FIX YOU blasting on their car radio, hmm, nice song choice dude.

TING TINGS rock. Sweaty big venues do not rock.

Id write about last night, but Id better not. Too much. Hahaha- I, you know what I mean.

St. Patricks day is hilarious. Watching all the weirdos puke in the streets is always um, interesting. Google had a nice little salute to the holiday.

My sister went into a gourmet grocery store yesterday and asked me if I wanted her to bring anything out for me- "My hot future husband" I thought to myself, but just said- "No thanks, Im good, Dee" she came out holding a cheesecake. Good enough.

Excuse me while I go play beer pong, it is... SPRING BREAK!!

xo

Thats Not My Name - The Ting Tings

Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now

Holding back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me, oh no
I never say anything at all
But with nothing to consider they forget my name
(ame, ame, ame)

They call me 'Hell'
They call me 'Stacey'
They call me 'her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me 'Quiet Girl'
But I'm a riot
Mary, jo, lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

I miss the catch if they throw me the ball
I'm the last chick standing up against the wall
Keep up, falling, these heels they keep me boring
Getting clamped up and sitting on the fence now

So alone all the time and I
Lock myself away
Listen to me, Oh No!
Although I'm dressed up, out and all with
Everything considered they forget my name
(ame, ame, ame)

They call me 'Hell'
They call me 'Stacey'
They call me 'Her'
They call me 'Jane'
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

They call me 'Quiet Girl'
But I'm a riot
Mary, jo, lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name

Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?
Are you calling me darling?
Are you calling me bird?

PERFECTLY IMPERFECT..

2009-03-10T22:52:00.001-07:00

I am a perfectionist. I hate being this way. School this week is a killer. I torture myself to be perfect. I am not okay with just being human and doing an okay job. Its funny that I am this way now because growing up, I never really beat myself up over school work. I did just fine. Now that im older, I approach school so differently. It becomes exhausting-- to be perfectly honest. I drive myself insane over it. Tomorrow my midterm is due. I spent the last 2 nights home doing homework. It is now 2AM, I did not finish. Im right where I started at 8 PM. Why? Because, no matter what I do, Im never happy with my work.

UGHHHHH.

In the end, it always works out, but I always manage to sike myself out. I cant wait for a week off next week!!

SPRING BREAK-- Im going to CANCUN!! Umm, yeah right! Recession.com

Today in class, I printed out a document that I was working on. It was 8 pages. The printer accidently printed out 900 pages. The printer was spitting paper like WHITNEY HOUSTON on crack!! Our school gives every student an allowance of 350 sheets per semester, cool no?? After that you have to pay per copy. I ended up owing 150 dollars. S, my classmate saved my life and helped me sort it out. THANK G. Im now back at my normal number, 70 pages used. I had no idea that we even had an allowance... Im so out of the loop.

Aright, I guess im going to sleep, not that I will be able to anyhow due to nerves. Im such a loser. Then I wonder why no one reads my blog. I wouldnt read it.

xo

FEVERS AND MIRRORS...

2009-03-08T15:22:00.000-07:00

Today Im jumping out of my skin. I cant really stay focused on anything due to the amount of stuff on my plate right now. Every time I get started with something, I get distracted. Is that what people mean when they say "overly stimulated"??

Hmm maybe.

I ate like a pig today. I am ill. No, no, really, a pig. I feel huge.

I want Wednesday to come and go already. Let it be over with.

Day light savings time is a hoax, because we are losing time, what kind of stupidity is that??

WTF??

Im tired, I slept for 6 hours last night. Not nearly enough. Never enough. I love to sleep. Ive never been much of a morning person.

How magnificent was yesterday, last nights and todays weather?
Right??
Im beginning to think that Im one of those people who are significantly effected by hot and cold weather-- mood wise. This burst of spring weather felt nice.

I bought a mirror last night at Duane Reade just because, I felt like we needed one. RANDOM. I didnt have a portable goody mirror. Now I do. The man at the checkout counter, aka the cashier was really deformed. It felt weird buying a mirror from him. Poor guy.

FAILING TO PLAN...

2009-03-06T15:12:00.000-08:00

Is planning to fail. I live by these words.

I got an A on my report from last week. That felt nice.

I just bit my nails off. Sally Hansen's HARD AS NAILS top coat polish is gross. The smell lingers forever. I didnt get a manicure this week, so I put that crap on my nails to hold me over. The smell grossed me out so I bit it off along with all of my nails. This means one thing. I am nervous. I am stressed out. I am bothered. I am not looking forward to this week.

Today I had lunch with S. Every time we get together we have such great convos. I love her. I wish I got to see more of her and a few of my other friends. Like G. My schedule is just too damn ridiculous. I hate schedules. I hate the stress they cause. But, thats life. Stuff could be worse, I could have nothing to do. Now THAT would stink. I would like a few days of having nothing to do- though. Yeah, now im rambling.

I have a pit in my stomach. This week kinda sucked for a slew of reasons. Im glad its over. Perhaps hitting the reset button will do me some good. But for now... Im just blah. This just leads me to believe that I am in dire need of a vacation. i think ive finally become one of those people who become affected mood wise if they dont work out. I havent worked out this week and I feel crappy. I never thought Id say those words about myself. But, there are just too many signs pointing to it.

I got the most random IM last night from someone whom I havent spoken to in years. Thats always interesting. Too bad I fell asleep mid convo.

Enjoy your weekend darlings.
xx

SOMETIMES....

2009-03-02T21:34:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I sleep with eye makeup on... Gross.

Sometimes I just feel itchy all over. Its the strangest feeling...

Sometimes I set my alarm, it goes off and then I reset it to go off every 10 minutes for another 30 minutes..

Sometimes I cry a bit too much from TV shows, like tonights BACHELOR episode and last nights BROTHERS AND SISTERS..

Sometimes I feel like chopping all of my hair off until I realize how ugly id look, then I change my mind QUICKLY, the thought comes back every so often, nonetheless...

Sometimes after I eat sushi I get this gross feeling, I visualize little parasites festering in my intestines. GROSS, I continue to eat a disgusting amount of sushi...

Sometimes I want to give JIMMY KIMMEL an eye lift...

Sometimes I am convinced that I am the worlds best parker...

Sometimes I want to buy those instant lotto tickets when I go to the mini mart because I am convinced that I will win millions. Then I come to my senses and buy my gum and leave.

REUNITED...

2009-03-01T15:50:00.000-08:00

The other night El, R, N, and J went for dinner. It was a celebratory night, because we all hadn't hung out in ages. J gave me shit about my blog, because he says that I dont post enough. N agreed. R doesnt really read my blog and neither does El. oh well, sometimes they do. I explained that if I dont have anything to really blog about I dont bother writing, because who cares about stupidity. J said that if he had a blog, which by the way he does, he would blog every ten minutes about everything going on in his life. Twitter style. So folks, I just might take his advice and post minute to minute updates. I wouldnt hold my breath or anything but its just a thought... El and J got into a political discussion that kind of needed to be broken up, thats always fun...

Anyway, while we were out I bumped into some old friends too. Its always nice to catch up with friends that I havent seen in a while. Jared and I talked about the perks of being single as opposed to be unhappily attached. It was nice to laugh with someone who has a similar sense of humor as me. Dry, obnoxious and borderline offensive. While we were outside grabbing cabs to go home, I randomly asked a guy outside what his favorite REM song was. He looked at me as if I had 4 heads and was speechless. I answered the question for him. SWEETNESS FOLLOWS, right? He was still perplexed. "Good choice" I retorted. Everyone started laughing. "What kind of question is that" El said. I just laughed and said "A perfectly relevant one."

Over lunch today, I ordered broccoli rabe as a side dish. "Youre like the ONLY person we know that would order that willingly as opposed to a side of spinach Rach" My sister in law and brother said. "I know, Im weird." But honestly, what else is new?? Ive always been weird. Some will disagree with that statement, like my younger sister Dee. Truth is, I have always been a bit different. Take it or leave it.

My friends are weird too. R took a picture of a boys legs because they were skinnier than hers and she needed to see them as inspiration everyday, to exercise more and get them to look like his. N looked on is disbelief, I laughed and totally supported her. It was hilarious. The next day, I got an email from her titled-- Cornish hen. See for yourselves. We all have our quirks. When we are together, theres no telling what will happen next.

DONE BUT NOWHERE NEAR IT..

2009-02-24T17:33:00.000-08:00

I finally handed in my huge design process report today. Ugh, what a load off. I was stoked to get a parking spot RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY SCHOOL!!! My project even looked professional. Score, I hope... I was so happy to be done with it. You know, to be able to exhale. I had to sit through 2.5 hours of presentations. Can anyone say yawnnn?? Then my teacher shredded one girls report apart in front of all of us. Our jaws were hanging open. Definitely woke our asses up. We even got out early, but not before... enter the horror shrill-- dun dun dun.. My teacher handed down our new monster assignment. Im not loving my schedule this semester. Im sick of school.

Okay enough with the complaining. Im supposed to make you laugh right? WRONG. (Well, that just made me laugh.)

Lately, a few of my friends decided to tell me that they hate when I write "whatever" in a convo on aim or bbm or whatever.. Haha, oops. I guess its rude? I dunno, is it? Its usually a sign that im tired of the matter that we are discussing, or that im just in a bad mood. Is that so bad? I guess it is.. Ill need to think of a new term.

By the way does anyone else hate the word- Biotch? Who the hell made that one up? Eww, so annoying to see typed out and even dumber when said aloud, no? Hobag in my opinion is way better. Just sayingggg...

Oh and heres another tidbit for y'all, I stink when it comes to metaphors. I couldnt come up with a witty one if my life depended on it. Weird, because, normally Im quick with stuff. Metaphors not so much..

When I used the paper cutter in school today, I kept having this vision of me slicing my finger tip off while cutting my illustrations. The sound that machine makes is intense. So loud and scary. Totally the noise you think of when you think of one slicing ones finger off. It wouldnt go away. I was sure that I was going to lose a shard of something, luckily enough, there was no blood shed. Had there been, it totally wouldve qualified me for an extension though, no? I kinda want one of those things for my house.

Obsessed with this song lately. Goose bumps. Beautiful. I ♥ My Morning Jacket.

Bermuda Highway (Acoustic Version) - My Morning Jacket

OKKKAYYYYY

2009-02-22T20:20:00.000-08:00

Ughhh.... yes I loved SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE, yes it was great, yes it deserved to win a few awards, but ummm hellooo??

Im exhausted from the darn movie.

OVERKILL like whoa. Danny Boyle is kind of adorable though. Um, yeah, hes the director.

Queen Latifah does not belong is royal blue taffeta - by the way.

I adore KATE WINSLET. Shes just has a way about her.. Such poise and grace.

Gd im in love with SEAN PENN. I want to have his babies. But does he really need to get political?

I couldnt be any happier with the results for best actor/actress.

IM TIRED.

UP/DOWN

2009-02-20T14:55:00.000-08:00

The color orange
The smell of charcoal and wood burning.
Paint markers.
BBM convos with R.
Weekends in the city.
Sudoku puzzles.
A full tank of gas.
The fact that CONOR OBERST is coming out with a new album in May.
My niece.
My bed.
Vacations.
The people Ive met in school.
My sister in laws mispronunciation of names and words.
My loved ones duh.
Red nail polish.
Fiber one cereal, yeah its that bad.
Finishing a big project.
Office supplies.
Hugs and kisses.
Hearts.
Emoticons.
Rose scented candles.
Boxed goods that come in the mail bearing my name.
Midgets.
Cotton candy.
The smell of soap.
11x17 laser printer paper.
Smiles.
Holding hands.
Record players.
Singing.
Music.
Baking, cooking and seeing the faces of those who enjoy my finished products.
Being called by my full first name.
Neat handwriting.
People who make me laugh.
Broken meters.

People who are CHEAP.
Parking tickets.
Yellow/red lights.
Sean Paul.
People who lie.
Expensive parking lots.
Judging.
Empty tissue boxes.
Cilantro.
Coffee.
Broken pencils.
Being late.
Bills.
Car trouble.
Socks with holes in them.
Waking up early.
Dirty mirrors.
Clothes at the dry cleaners.
Packing.
UNPACKING.
The word SOLD OUT.
Selfish people.
Rude waiters.
Dead batteries.
Mosquito bites.
Gossiping.
Blood suckers.
Pain in the asses.
Bad drivers.
Long lines.

Yep. Thats all for now.

SWAMPED TO THE NINES, BY MEANS OF A LIST...

2009-02-18T19:37:00.000-08:00

1. I have no time for myself. Nothing. not a minute. Every hour of mine is accounted for and its frustrating. School is killing me-- along with life is general. Im tired. Im stressed. Im overwhelmed and Im writing about it.

2. I called BLICK today to tell them about the things that they forgot to put in my bag after yesterdays purchases. They say I need to come back- Ugh, what a pain.. Theres never parking over there unless its late at night. Thats where ill be tomorrow night after Picking up my sharpener and my portfolio book.

3. My mom keeps emailing me stuff about perspective opportunities for work involving writing, dating and other random stuff. Shes hilarious.

4. Im officially sick of plain yogurt. Barf.

5. This week is throwing me off due to the long Presidents day weekend. Tomorrow is really Thursday?? Weird.

6. I love red wine.

7. I love ELMERS spray adhesive. I dont love when it gets on my phone and fingertips. It NEVER comes off.

8. FEDEX/KINKOS is a rip off. Dont make color copies there. Unless that is, you dont mind paying $2.00 a copy for an 11x17 print.

9. I miss my niece. Its been like three weeks since Ive seen her. Way too long. I also miss you, S. Wish we had more time to hang.

YES DOZE...

2009-02-17T22:35:00.000-08:00

Wow, this might just be a record here. I havent written in 12 whole days!!
I almost didnt write just now, due to the slow internet that is plaguing my house the last few days. I have zero patience lately. Ive just been so busy with school, work and just plain living, that any unnecessary lapse in time just wont cut it.

Im so tired but im jacked up on diet coke, which btw, is a big no-no on this diet of mine, that I just popped a TYLENOL PM. Its already kicking in due to the annoying lag on my internets part to load this page. Wow, this post isnt sounding very grammatically sound now, is it? Hi, is I love the woozy feeling, there?

This past weekend was a lot of fun. Kicked it with friends and enjoyed the downtime. Walking in soho in LOUBS killed my calves though on Sunday. Im still sore. Today, I hit new levels of cheese and wore a black bra under my white tee shirt. It felt super empowering and trashy. What?? I was lazy. Whatever, who cares??

I bought an electric pencil sharpener today for $30.00. For some reason, I refuse to take the plunge in buying the bad boy loud plug in kind because 89 bux is just way to much for a pencil sharpening device. Is anyone else with me here on this one? How can such a dumb little device be so freaking expensive? I think the govt needs to get involved it capping the price of these things!!

This is the 3rd battery operated one that Ive bought. Those things are garbage. Lets do the math here folks, shall we? Thats right! I pretty much couldve bought it from the get go. But no, Im stubborn and cheap sometimes. Anyway, I come home and start doing my homework in shading and perspective drawing, and go to whip out my new crappy sharpener, and guess what? The damn thing wasnt in the bag!! WTF?! AND I PAID FOR IT. Ugh.. Annoying. I sooo dont want to go back there tomorrow.

I guess im going to bed because my eyes are closing and I need to be up super early. Just wanted to check in and say hi. Hopefully ill get back into my groove.

BTW- IM OBSESSED WITH....

THE JUMP OFF by LIL KIM and TIMBALAND

GASP!! hip hop. I know. But, it was the song of the weekend. Thanks Z.

HOLLER, WORLDWIDE.

The Jump Off - Lil Kim/Mr Cheeks/Timbaland

IN THE ZONE..

2009-02-06T14:01:00.000-08:00

As I sit here pretending to enjoy my afternoon "snack" of Goji Berry Trail Mix, I find myself wondering what exactly food is anymore. Food has pretty much become something I consume in order to survive. There is no pleasure left in eating. I am reduced to feeling elated over this trail mix, because it has cocoa seeds. Not chocolate, just a hint of a little something that tastes remotely sweet within this bitter mix of rotten raisins and some other super sour berry that makes me wince when I bite it. This does nothing to help the gaping hole in my inner cheek from accidentally biting it the other night. I guess I was that hungry... Jk- but seriously, dont you hate when you bite your cheek accidentally?? So yeah, this tarty gross mix burns my wound and yet im happy to be chewing...

Speaking of chewing and dentists, ya know, my last post and all.... I stumbled upon this video that had me in stitches. Tell me we havent all felt this way at one point or wish we always did feel this way...

SHOULD YOU NEED TO..

2009-02-03T22:30:00.001-08:00

So my car has no windshield wipers, see last weeks post. Anywhoo, I called the dealership to bring it in for service and they said that they were backed up. What else is new? When are they ever not backed up? "Well, you can bring it in tomorrow (friday) but you wont have it back til Monday." The man on the phone said. "Oh no, that will never work, what will I do all weekend? Is it supposed to rain or snow? Do you know?" I asked. Suddenly I was making this man my gd, asking him to speak of the future. "No" he says. "Okay then, Ill bring it in Wednesday for same day service." I declared. Glad we got that settled, right?

WRONG.

This morning the snow came piling out of the sky. Chunks, flecks, babies, ya know, the whole nine. I had class and needed to get to the city. Luckily, my parents have an extra car that my little sister refuses to drive. THE VW BUG. Yep, thats right, "Hi, Dad, can I borrow the beetle?" Done and done. Yes, I hit the snow storm in a bug. No, Not very smart, but I NEEDED to get to class today.

So now.... Im used to driving a truck where im queen of the road, but- In this thing, not so much. I was a mere, well, beetle. Adjusting wasnt easy. When I hit a major intersection at a red light, I slammed on the brakes causing two other cars behind me swerving out of the way, speeding by and honking me, giving me the finger. The view from the rear view scared the living shit out of me. These cars seriously couldve finished me off at the speed they were going. Soda can crushed, style.

I could have DIED, no joke. Gd likes me lately. I love him too. But it was right then and there that I thought about myself getting so badly mangled in this car, where id be unrecognizable if they hit me.
It was then that I thought to myself, how would anyone identify me??

Well, guess what, fellow readers- Here are two things you need to know, If im ever ya know, in trouble, and you need to know that its the real me.. (Remember that movie OVERBOARD with Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell, when they kidnap her to their hillbilly family after she drowns at sea?? Then they need to identify her at the police station because she has amnesia?! Ugh, I loved that movie as a kid)

1. I have a beauty mark in the shape of a heart on my right foot, by the inner ankle area. Its a tiny one, but you can definitely see it. How freaking jealous are you??

2. On the inside of my lip, I have a ball, from when I was a little kid and had my first cavity filled in. They numbed my gums, which numbed my lip. I chewed the living shit out of my lip until I looked like bozo the clown and had to be put on antibiotics for 10 days for it. Yes, that made me a cannibal unwillingly. WHAT?? Kids should not get Novocain, at such a young age without their mouths being glued completely shut afterwards, til the numbness wears off. Just sayingg...
So yeah, that debacle left a small ball in my lip on the left side of my bottom lip. You cant feel it, but if youre looking for it, its there.

So now, if you didnt know, now ya know.

xo.

RESTORED FAITH...

2009-01-30T23:35:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, a random act of kindness can be so inspiring. Seeing one on the streets of New York especially, is rare. Yesterday, I witnessed kindness between two strangers that kinda rocked my world. Therefore, I feel compelled to blog about my experience.

While stopped at a red light in the city, on 8th Avenue, I saw a man, exiting a taxi. As he slammed the door, I noticed that he had dropped a piece of paper. I tried to look at it, but it almost seemed as though it was a baggage claim stub or something that he nonchalantly "dropped" on the floor. By dropped I mean, the kind of thing NY'ers sometimes do when they think no one else is looking- also known as-- drumroll please- LITTERING. GASP, I know.. There were 2 cops right in front of him, btw. So anyway, I didnt scream out my window to tell him that he had dropped a scrap of paper because I thought it was deliberate and that he was guilty of the L word, and by that, I dont mean love. He was also kinda far away, so I left it alone.

Anyway, typical NY setting, a delivery boy on a bicycle was behind him riding his bicycle by in front of the 2 cops. I mention the cops again because they play an important role in the clincher-- Back to the story. So this delivery boy stops and gets the mans attention and points to the ground to show the man that he dropped something. The man bent down to pick it up. It was then that I got a closer view and saw that it was a $5.00 bill. The man looked at the delivery boy, put it in his hand and said "Keep that, thanks for being honest, man"

I know, I know, dont you have the goosebumps??

I screamed out my window, "Aww, thats the coolest thing Ive seen in a while" while the cops just looked on unfazed. Gd forbid they wouldve told the man that he dropped something right in front of their faces, I bet those morons were stoked to pocket it after the guy disappeared.

Stories like those remind me that there are some really good people out there in this world and that a mere good deed still goes a long way. Gosh, I wish I got to see stuff like that happen everyday. So refreshing. Suddenly I feel like I want to do more for others and focus on selfless acts. We all should, dont ya think?

MALFUNCTIONING...

2009-01-30T15:32:00.001-08:00

My windshield wipers are broken in my car. This basically means that when its pouring, hailing or snowing and I go to turn them on they get stuck in the middle of the windshield. Sexy, I know right? Hence obstructing the view even more. Getting home last night was pretty much a miracle. Thank u gd for sitting on my shoulder.

Speaking of broken things- my table top drafting table is broken- hi- is its time to spend 600 on a new one real table there? Or I can deal w the crazies on Craigs list- which always entertaining I guess.. Ya know- making fake plans to meet up that never pan out only to discover that the one they're selling is nothing like what is was represented to be. Good times!

Have I mentioned that all I do is eat flax and hemp bars on my diet? Have I also mentioned that they suck? The only fun part is chewing on the hemp seeds feverishly trying to eek out somewhat of a buzz that never comes..

I cheated last night and had 2 tbs of peanut butter with my late night snack. You know me- living dangerously on the edge.. Owww!

Everything else is Irie. I'm dying to see THE READER but haven't gotten around to it just yet. DEE just informed me that she bought the bootleg- so I'm kinda stoked to watch it. I have a shitload to catch up on tivo wise. BIG LOVE is back. Best show everrr.com

X to tha O.

Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

SOMETIMES...

2009-01-24T14:58:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I like to read a lot more than I write...

Sometimes I can go to see two movies in one day without a problem..

Sometimes I think everyone on this planet is insane except for me...

Sometimes I can go for days without worrying about anything..

Sometimes getting through an hour without worry seems impossible..

Sometimes I wonder why garbage men are so mean. Why do they block the whole freaking street when clearly they have plenty of room to pull over and let other cars pas??

Sometimes I want to give them an earful but instead just stare straight on as I finally pass those asstards..

Sometimes I feel like throwing my blackberry out the window, but dont, because Id just have to buy another one.

Sometimes I can lay in bed all day long and still feel tired at the end of the day...

Sometimes my niece is so precious, I can almost cry just thinking about just how adorable she is...

Sometimes I have bloggerhea, sometimes I dont.

WISH LIST

2009-01-17T11:02:00.000-08:00

Here's a list that I have compiled of things that I really want but sadly due to my current bank statement balance dont seem to be in the cards right now or anytime soon....

1. New AUSTIN HORN sheets and duvet cover. These people make the best sheets known to man. Their 1,000 thread count sateen sheets make me tingle. The set that I am using now is kaput. I am sad that I need to get rid of them. Id be horrified if anypne saw them on my bed.

2. GOLDEN GOOSE boots. When I am ridiculously rich one day, these will be the only boots that will grace my feet aside from LOUBS.

3. A MAC BOOK PRO. Its official, Im ready to be promoted. Love my white Macbook, I insisted on it because the white one is the only way to go when you make the switch from a PC to a MAC, it only seemed appropriate, but now Im ready for the real deal.

4. A new rug up my staircase, Im kinda over the one I have now.

5. A MARC JACOBS eskimo fur hat, Ive been dying for it for like 2 years already. I need, I want, I must have it one day. It looks something like this except the one I want has the ears that hang too...

6. A wing in my home specifically designated for drafting, creating, crafting and drawing; complete with a REAL drafting table, a plethora of school supplies and 4 different kinds of lighting and TWO industrial sized PHOTO COPY machines, color and black and white.

7. A sweet new car.

8. A pilates studio complete with a massage table and smoothie bar.

HMM, I might be getting a bit carried away here, huh? Ok, Ok, back to the realistic stuff..

9. A driver, ok, ok, I know.

10. New curtains in my bedroom.

11. A VACATION with unlimited spending money.

Yes, I know, Im a bit indulgent today but hey, its cold out and I want to let it all hang out....

Last night I watched STEPBROTHERS with my sis, E and D after dinner. DEE out did herself. Her food was delicious, shes such a great hostess. My niece was scrumptious and the wine was perfect. I laughed my sides off from it in the beginning but after the first hr it became painful to watch. I still adore WILL FARELL so...

FOCUSED

2009-01-15T21:47:00.000-08:00

I love this song. I love the DRIVE BY TRUCKERS. Everyone should have this song in their library. Especially the road trippers and drivers. THE RIGHTEOUS PATH. Amazing song. Buy it, learn it, drive with it blasting in the car.

The Righteous Path - DRIVE-BY TRUCKERS

Tonight, some freak prank called me and left a nice long ranting message about wanting to be friends, platonic ones, how they loved animals and how they met me at "lick my shitbox show." Adorable no? Sadly I missed the call because my phone was on vibrate. Prank calls would be so much more fun if the offender left a callback number, no? Oh well, thanks for the laugh and for taking the time out of your day to leave a ridiculously strange message. I hope it was as good for you as it was for me. Wish I knew how to upload it on here to share it with y'all. Its hard for me to respect anonymous ranters, but whatever... Good conversation piece, I guess...

BRRRRR...

NEGLECT..

2009-01-15T14:37:00.000-08:00

Im sorry that Ive been neglecting this sweet blog and whatever fan base that still remains. I wont bother making up excuses, Ive just been busy-- thats all. Plain old busy. Busy procrastinating, busy working out, busy busting balls, busy with school, busy with people, friends and family..

Theres not a day that goes by though, that I dont think about my blog without feeling melancholy about my infrequent posting as of late. I have so much to share and yet no words to really say them.. Does anyone really care?

This morning I woke up super early for an appt. and the person never showed up. There is nothing worse than that in my book. I woke up to a blizzard and had to pull myself out of bed, shower, get dressed in my warmest and drive in the freezing cold snow storm only to be completely stood up. UGHHHH, unsexy. I wont lie, I love putting on my godzilla boots in the snow, so that was fun but still, booo.

Started school this week again. I think I like my teachers. Its confirmed, I like male teachers better than female ones. Kill me. Its not even about crushing on them, though that is always fun, I just like male teachers better.

I know this semester is going to be an intense one, workload wise. So brace yourselves for daily bitch-fests..

I think I like to complain. I should probably work on that. Thing is, I complain more about the dumb things, not the really big things that have some merit, depending on who you ask... I wonder what that says about me..

Ive made a million plans to go away this month and yet im still here. Oddly enough, Im fine with it, I just wish people would stop rubbing their FB status updates about vacations and the blistering sun in my face. I guess im not so fine with it, huh?

Does anyone else love the feeling of snowflakes falling on their eyelids like I do? Not to sound too sappy but little instances like those make me appreciate nature and all the beauty we are surrounded by, very often taking it all for granted.

LIKE..

2009-01-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

My mom says that I say the word way too often for my own good. I tell her, when im telling a story, the word like needs to be used when repeating dialogue between two people. She rolled her eyes. I asked her if shed rather I said "says" every time instead of "like" She didnt answer.

I saw MILK the other night with D. I loved it. Too bad D slept thru the last hr. Oh well. More popcorn for me. I have a severe crush on SEAN PENN and his strange nose. JAMES FRANCO, delicious, and such a nice guy, by the way.. Ive met him a bunch of times, always a sweetheart with a smile.

I start school again on Tuesday. A part of me is kinda bummed because Ive really been enjoying the down time to do things like PILATES 3 times a week. The other day I worked out with R and EL. As the two anorexics exercised away, they had me deejay-ing with my ipod. WTF?? "Im the fat one" I said, "You guys man the tunes" Between R wanting to hear EYE OF THE TIGER and El wanting to hear sad BRIGHT EYES tunes, I was losing my mind. D said watching us all work out together was like watching a sitcom. It was a blast though. All we really did was make fun of each other and rehash old stories. Good times.

Leave it to my life to be disrupted during "terrorist attack" day yesterday. As I was getting ready to leave the house, I heard a bomb noise go off. "I didnt go into the city today because of this.. why did they come to BK?" I thought to myself. Enter every car alarm sound going off, fire trucks and police cars. A man hole exploded RIGHT IN FRONT of my house. Yep, the lights flickered, the pictures fell off of the walls and the power was officially out. ONLYME.COM No power alll day long til 9PM. Glad it wasnt AL QUAEDA though so it fine.

So you are now all brought up to speed. Nice and informed, like a memo. I hope some exciting sh*t happens soon so that I can blog about it and become cool again.

Oh, my sister got a refund check in the mail the other day that belongs to me. Holler..

NEW..

2009-01-02T13:27:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR my darlings!!

I hope everyone had a nice time NYE. Personally I find NYE to be kind of a bust. Everyone scurries around in an attempt to find the best possible way to spend the evening. They go all out on their outfits, book the rip off car to shuttle them around only to find themselves scratching their heads when the clock hits midnight and things are just the same. Im not bitter, I love going out and having a blast, I just find it to be a bit anticlimactic.

This year though, I had an interesting experience with D, J, J, I, M, J, my little sister and her friend R. We were invited to go on a yacht with some interesting characters from how shall I say, out of town. The company was great so it was a good time. The yacht rolled out to the STATUE OF LIBERTY for the fireworks at midnight. It was actually really beautiful. The deejay on the boat had the funniest accent and language skills. Meaning his english was far from perfect. He kept saying "Okay, everyone come upstair to watch the fireworks" We were all laughing our sides off, it never got old. So funny. I and I were bullied into entering the beauty pageant of ho ho hoes and it was hilarious. We decided to kick it up a notch and say that we were twin and that we loved playing with each others hair. Ya know, just to spice things up a bit. Sadly though, we did not win. I guess because we didnt strip down to our panties and put on white maribu wings. Oh well, guess you cant win em all, right?

So yeah-- that was my night. Good times. Great company.

I know my blog has been a bit boring lately. Im sorry, I dont really have an excuse other than the fact that Ive just been really busy doing stuff and Im never near my computer long enough to blog.

M, thanks for remaining a loyal reader and commenting, even if its not on the site. L, you too. I know I still owe you your cd's. Soon, I promise.

Whats up with this Jan 7th thing I keep hearing about?? Supposedly disaster is going to strike terrorism wise, in the city. I never believe those things, but truthfully speaking, it is a bit off putting.

Last night I hung out with N and laughed my sides off from her. Lately the things she says and the way she becomes so animated in her story telling cracks me up. She was on fire last night. we met a few people who were literally caricatures. From Jaimie, the rock gd who was clearly tripping his face off, dancing all over the place and screaming the song lyrics, the wrong ones of course; to Donny, the crazy little 20 year old elf from Ohio, who would giggle this really awkward laugh after each thing he said. He was macking on all the ladies, it was hysterical. Quite entertaining. The moon wasnt full last night, but something was definitely in the air.

Today, I worked out and im already feeling the after effects of the workout, especially in my legs. Im scared for tomorrow. Hopefully, I will be able to walk. Thats right fellow readers, Im moving my lazy ass in an attempt to become hot again. We shall see.... Pray for me. Im actually starting to enjoy dance music during my workout. Weird. I guess obscure indie folk tunes just dont cut it for the physically fit. Did someone say MADONNA remix??!!

WHA WHAT??

A FEW OF MY FAVORITES....

2008-12-30T07:25:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the not so dirty bad words are way better to use as insults. Ya know, the ones our grandparents would shout out at bad drivers when we were in the car with them?? The ones our parents used when we were around and they discovered that basement was flooded? The ones the bus driver would yell at you on the way home from school? The ones your friends taught you?

Lets go thru this together shall we??

The following are my favorites not so bad, but oh so bad words-

CHUMP- Cmon, dont you think of a chubby squat retard when you hear this word?

NUMB SKULL- My mom used to say this one a lot. So freakinng funny.

KNUCKLE HEAD- Enough said

PANSY- Oh my gosh, so good.

BUTT MUNCH- Crunch and Munch times 12

ASS WIPE- I still love this one. Seriously, ass wipe? Amazing.

HO BAG- I still love this word. I call my sister this sometimes, just for fun.

BOZO- The end all of insults. When used on a man it hurts.

CREEP- I use this one all the time. It can be pretty searing. Its hard to find a replacement for this one. So clean, yet so good.

DIP SHIT- Just say it out loud.

DORK- Well this one hurts a bit because, I am, a dork.

DWEEB- A nerdier dork.

PUNK- One of my personal faves. Calling someone a punk is so much fun.

SPAZZ- My mom used to say this one a lot too. For the uncoordinated, of course.

TOOL- I think this ones the ultimate. If a dude is called a tool, he should kill himself.

WUSS- You know what im thinking.

RANDOM.

SOMETIMES...

2008-12-29T20:56:00.000-08:00

There's a reason for everything.

Sometimes I'm not exactly sure what the reasons are...

Sometimes I lag..

Sometimes I leave returns in my car for way too long...

Sometimes I say lolz and it makes me cringe...

Sometimes my moments of clarity come to me at the oddest times...

Sometimes my blackberry is my boyfriend...

Sometimes I bowl like a spazz, sometimes I bowl like a pro...

Sometimes people say the wildest things to me-- Things that catch me completely off guard but still make me feel good.

Sometimes I am convinced that I could live off of peanut butter and water...

Sometimes I get defensive for no reason whatsoever...

Sometimes I have shit to blog about, sometimes I don't...

Sometimes I don't delete things that I should...

Sometimes I don't read the newspaper for a whole week and then read I them all on Sunday just to see how long I can last without knowing what's going on in the world...

Sometimes I'm a hopeless romantic, a hard core one..

Sometimes a good scare is what we all need to feel happy and to appreciate the things we lose sight of...

Sometimes I wish I trusted people more...

Sometimes my blackberry short circuits and deletes everything it really pisses me off...

Sometimes I feel so happy I can cry....

Sometimes I feel so sad, I can laugh...

Sometimes I wonder why anyone reads my blog of nonsense...

HAPPY HAPPY..

2008-12-23T17:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Hanukah and Merry Christmas to my fellow readers!!

I hope your holiday is filled with health, wealth, happiness and AMAZING MUSIC. Holiday time can be a tough time for some and a festive time for others. I hope that you all find it to be the better of the 2. Thankfully, I get to see my family all the time, but I think its real sweet watching everyone prepare to travel for the holidays to be reunited with family members.

Im in love with this song that L put on my mix. Great sad holiday song. MICK JAGGGER is a music gd and JOSS STONE has a set of lungs. For all of you feeling bummed or a sense of loss, heres one for you.

Lonely Without You (This Christmas) - Mick Jagger and Joss Stone

J got me the sweetest holiday gift. An adorable MAC compact with 3 lip glosses. Loves you. I mean, who doesnt love getting presents? Receiving gifts is a lot of fun but I also love buying gifts for people whom I am close with.

While I was driving today into the city, there was a smell of wood burning in the air, the yummiest of smells out there second to freshly cut grass. I wish I had a fireplace. Winter is here and all I want to do is sit in front of a cozy warm fireplace with good company. How corny am I? Note to self, next home one day, MUST have a fireplace.

Today while walking in the city, I slipped on a huge sheet of ice and nearly went flying. I caught myself tho, pheww. I was not able to avoid that look of terror in my face, you know the look of doom that everyone gets when they are about to take a spill? It was pretty embarrassing. A man passing by saw, ugh, horrifying, and said "nice save" I thanked him wishing he didnt see.

Cant have it all, right?

SIDE NOTE - BEST ALBUMS

N, pointed out to me that AA BONDY is not an 08 album. I guess I was mistaken. But because, I first started listening to him in 08, im leaving him up anyway. My blog, my rules, haha... Thanks N.

I also forgot to include PHANTOM PLANETS new album RAiSE THE DEAD to my top list. Great great album. LEADER is my favorite track along with QUARANTINE and DO THE PANIC. Ill always have a soft spot in my heart for these guys just because they are a part of my younger years. Their sound has progressively matured into a fine finished product.

I hope you guys download some of the music I listed below. I think there are some really great tunes mentioned. Id love to hear what you think..

THE BEST OF 2008

2008-12-20T09:18:00.000-08:00

Here we go, my lovelies. Here are my top picks for the best ALBUMS OF 2008!!!

Everyone has their faves, but as you know, my faves are the only ones that count. Hahaha. Not Jk.

Shall we?? These are in no particular order by the way..

***** BEST ALBUMS OF 2008 *******

BON IVER- FOR EMMA, FOREVER AGO-
This mans voice is so soothing and beautiful. His music establishes a mood right off the bat. Great instrumentals. Great lyrics. Favorite tracks of mine, FOR EMMA, SKINNY LOVE, THE WOLVES and BLINDSIDED. Just a well rounded cohesive album in my opinion. I can play SKINNY LOVE on my ukulele. SO yeah +2 points! ANND the album was recorded in a log cabin. Does it getting anymore raw than that?

AA BONDY- AMERICAN HEARTS-
ANother very talented set of vocal chords. This year I have embraced a ton of folk music. Bondys tunes are so heartfelt and thought provoking. He definitely brings that soulful religious element to the table which might not be for everyone. But to me, his album flows well, gets you thinking about current events and relationships. His raspy voice is oh so sexy too. AMERICAN HEARTS, THERES A REASON, RAPTURE, hell all of them are amazing.

MGMT- ORACLE SPECTACULAR-
Standing ovation on this one. This band kinda makes you want to hate them because of their wacky style that seems so overdone. Neon, sweatbands etc.. But wow, this album crosses over seamlessly to main streamer top 40 fans while keeping us elitists interested and wanting more.. How tacky did that just sound?? Insert barf there. I cant even tell you how many people heard KIDS in my car and became obsessed with that "weird band" They became the signature summer pool party, any party band. TIME TO PRETEND is right behind KIDS with ELECTRIC FEEL right up there too. Great great electro band! Just so upbeat. Great great album. Oh, and, brooklyn peeps. REPRESENT!!

COLDPLAY- VIVA LA VIDA-
Thats right, while we are talking mainstream, lets do this. Although I dont particularly care for MARTINS writing, lyrics wise, I really enjoyed this album and continue to play it. LOST is one of my favorite tracks, especially the acoustic version of it. The chanting vibe throughout was a nice addition to the album, something new and refreshing for coldplay. LOVERS IN JAPAN is another favorite of mine. In all honesty, I can listen to this album straight through. Two words- BRIAN ENO.

OKKERVIL RIVER- THE STAND-INS-
WIL SHEFF. Genius. Talented. I absolutely love this album. I loved seeing them live. He keeps raising the bar with each album e releases. This last one dealing with a bit more heartbreak than the others. He gets into it. Really deep, leaving us feeling his words. Searing and real. His voice is just amazing. Living up to his reputation, he has a way of making fun of himself as well which cuts the tension just when you think youre feeling it a bit too much. But then again he has quite a few upbeat songs, a perfect mix. I love this album. Love love love. I wish I could pick my favorite tracks, but I cant because they are ALL so great. But here- LOST COASTLINES, ON TOUR WITH ZYKOS, POP LIE, CALLING AND NOT CALLING MY EX.

CONOR OBERST AND THE MYSTIC VALLEY BAND- CONOR OBERST-
I really dont need to torture you all again on this one. I gave a really lengthly review on this album back in the summer. Yes, I love CO, No, he can do no wrong in my eyes, well not really, but I just really love this album. Recorded in Mexico, refreshing new sound, soothing, centered and festive at times.

SHE & HIM- VOLUME I-
The most adorable FOLK record of the year. Love ZOOEY DESCHANEL and M WARD so how can this one be a flop? So sweet and heartbreaking. So easy to listen to with a very retro sound to it. Her voice is playful and multi layered. He brings his deep even voice to the table, perfectly blending the two into a masterpiece. The harmonies are delicious and catchy. Her writing is so relatable. You almost feel like youre reading her diary. They kind of remind me of LINDA AND RICHARD THOMPSON, funny how I read that someone else felt the same way!

FLEET FOXES- FLEET FOXES-
Great album. Great vocals. This SEATTLE based band has a formula. There are no lead singers in this band. A heavily harmonic album. Lending a very psychedelic vibe. A beautiful work. My favorite track on this album is WHITE WINTER HYMNAL. Beautiful progression, layered so nicely. These guys made a conscious decision to write and structure their songs however they felt like, abandoning usual song structure, and surprisingly it worked out really well. This album might not be for everyone, but definitely deserves a listen. SUN IT RISES and OLIVER JAMES are really good too. YOUR PROTECTOR, great too.

TV ON THE RADIO- DEAR SCIENCE-
I love when an album starts off with an amazing track that sucks you right in. Wow, does this album ever. HALFWAY HOME does just that. Pumps you up, has a bit of a RAMONES feel during the first few seconds, and then slowly spreads out into an amazing joyride. The albums continues to wow throughout. These guys have come a long way. Im not going to lie, I didnt see this on coming AT ALL. They had fly by night potential, but TVOTR lets us know that they dont plan on going anywhere but up. Well done.

THE KILLS- MIDNIGHT BOOM-
I love this duo. Great album. Great tracks and instrumentals. So raw and hot. These two are the picture of rock and roll. Sexy, in your face, dont give a shit filth. Hands down amazing album. Even better live. I LOVE EVERY SINGLE TRACK. For real. URA FEVER starts the album off with a boom, pardon the pun! CHEEP AND CHEERFUL, great anthem. BLACK BALLOON, a nice wind down track. This album is perfection. Seamless, flowing, gripping and chilling. Establishes a mood and keeps you interested til the very end. Impossible not to like these guys.

MATES OF STATE- RE-ARRANGE US-
This husband and wife duo deliver a great album. Catchy tracks with lyrics that are impressive all the while remaining light and fun. Their songs are the type that put you in a great head. The kind that you like to play on repeat over and over again, then hum them when youre not listening to them.

MY MORNING JACKET- EVIL URGES-
MMJ is a must have for every music collection. Alternative country rock at its best. Easy listening. Flows nicely. JIM JAMES has a very distinctive voice. Easily recognizable. Country vibe and WILCO like, so im partial. Nice accompaniments. SEC WALKIN is a great track. Great harmonies. With a song called, TOUCH ME IM GOING TO SCREAM.... How can one resist?! LOOK AT YOU is a sweet romantic track. TWO HALVES is a nice reflective track. Might actually be my favorite track on the record. REMNANTS and SMOKIN FROM SHOOTIN are excellent as well. Its nice to see them branching out and embracing new styles while staying true to their sound.

THE RACONTEURS- CONSOLERS OF THE LONELY-
JACK WHITE and BRENDEN BENSON are a great team. The album is gritty rock and roll with some pop accents. SALUTE YOUR SOLUTION is a great track along with many others. I finally see them as an established band as opposed to a fun side project. Their sound is lively with great garage rock infusion. Check out THESE STONES SHOOT. CAROLINA DRAMA brings the album to a nice close.

DEERHUNTER- MICROCASTLE-
This band is that band that always own up to their end of the deal. Theyre tracks are infamous for their momentum and wide vocal range. Each track is as refreshing as the last. Heavy on the electronic instrumentals yet their tracks never suffer from it, which is rare. TWILIGHT AT CARBON LAKE is an eerie track but manages to keep you interested til the very end. Im a big fan of ATLAS SOUND, btw, BRADFORD COX's electro side project.

****HONORABLE MENTIONS******

THE HOLD STEADY- STAY POSITIVE-
Keep the hating at bay. I know most people see this as one of the best of all time. Im putting them on here because I just havent given them enough play time to fall in love. Its at the top of this list. I like what Ive heard. Im just not sure that theyre all theyre love is happening. I like to feel it early on in.

KINGS OF LEON- ONLY BY THE NIGHT-
SEX IS FIRE rocks my world. Yes, this song is pure sex. Love the guitar, bass, the whole thing. Yum. The rest of the album is really good too. I just wasnt "wowwed" by the whole album as much as I expected to be. They are always a favorite though.

BECK- MODERN GUILT-
Loved CHEMTRAILS, Smooth psych like track. Almost a bit haunted. Great instrumentals. Good album. Ethereal. Something new by someone not so new to the scene.

LITTLE JOY-LITTLE JOY-
FABRIZIO MORETTI'S (of THE STROKES) side project. A fun playful album. The type that you can listen to all the way thru while sitting by the pool on a hot sunny day kicking back a few. That was the first thing that came to mind when I heard the first 20 seconds of the album. Summer day. Pina Colada style. Almost in the SHE & HIM realm. Something our parents wouldnt be opposed to listening to either while entertaining.

VAMPIRE WEEKEND- VAMPIRE WEEKEND-
I loved these guys when they first came out. Sadly, I tired of them easily. No need to worry about them, they hit mainstream pretty fast. Definitely noteworthy of an honorable mention.

BLACK KIDS- PARTIE TRAUMATIC-
A fun florida based band. Silly, playful and just out there. Fun lyrics, great stage presence. A little something to get your ass moving.

DEATHCAB FOR CUTIE- NARROW STAIRS-
Gibbard does what he does best. Sad, melancholy beauty.

SANTOGOLD- SANTOGOLD-
Rap meets Electro. Fun. Refreshing. Catchy.

GIRL TALK- FEED THE ANIMALS-
A mix of everything mashed into one album. Electro, funk, pop and rap. A nice parcel with a red ribbon.

SOCIALIZATION

2008-12-18T10:45:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a very social day which was big for me. I love hanging with friends and catching up with them. Sadly, I dont get to do it very often because school is always there to suck up every waking moment of mine.

It was my real first free day since being liberated. Met up with R and we headed uptown to celebrate A's birthday over lunch with a bunch of people. Im starting to realize that ive become somewhat socially awkward since enrolling in school. The trivial things that I once lived for, have been put on the back burner. They've been traded in for long hours of homework and talk of elevations, visual concepts and '09 class schedules. It was nice to see everyone and catch up though.

SIDE NOTE- R hates my music. It hurts my feelings. The only crap she listens to is like workout stuff. I always get a comment when she gets in my car. I asked her to make me a cheesy CD so that when shes in my car, she will be happy. She likes club music. I can tolerate it. The things we do for our friends... Lately shes been hilarious so I dont mind enduring house music for her.

Last night I went to see CSS with a bunch of friends. We had a blast. Wow, they really put on a show. Costumes, balloons, lights, the whole nine. At one point they even came off of the stage and started dancing with the crowd. Twas cute and strange.

Afterwards we went out for drinks and french fries. Saw ADRIEN GRENIER again! Was dying to relive the wine story from the other night but opted not to. I hate people that walk over to celebrities and hound them while theyre trying to enjoy their meal. So rude. My friends were star struck, I was kinda eh. They did enough staring to last a lifetime. N was great company last night. Hes one of those upbeat happy people. He also says the nicest things, well, most of the time anyway, ahemm, I know youre reading. We also had a newbie which always spices things up.

I was telling E how much I loved this one piece at ART BASEL. I am obsessed with feathers and this piece was mind blowing. I mentioned the artists name, REBECCA HORN, and she knew the exact one I was talking about. I want it. She said, "sure, for two hundred grand and its all yours" I said, "yeah, not this year with the economy and all" I asked her to buy it for me for Hanukah. Maybe she will, Im thinking no, though..

Maybe you can all chip it and send it to me.

How hot is this??

SOMETIMES...

2008-12-16T07:24:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I psych myself out something crazy only to find that things are just fine...

Sometimes D surprises me with how cool she can be. IE yesterdays message, saying "Its gorgeous out, lets go for drinks" Instead we went to target and did Hannukah shopping with my niece...

Sometimes I can watch the same clip over and over and laugh my ass off even more with each viewing...

Sometimes our president needs to have shoes thrown at him, just to make sure he knows whats up...

Sometimes someone knocks your dates glass of wine out of his hand spilling it all over ADRIEN GRENIER and the convo doesnt go as smoothly as planned...

Sometimes people put their foot in their mouth and watching them squirm is oh- so rewarding. Other times its just painful to watch...

Sometimes I procrastinate and put things off - causing them to become worse..

Sometimes I wonder if everything really does happen for a reason..

Sometimes people from my past suddenly appear, triggering weird emotions..

Sometimes one good heart to heart is all it takes to feel centered again...

Sometimes you make the list, sometimes you dont...

Sometimes I wish I could stay in bed alll dayyy longgg.

Sometimes my posts are boring...

GOODNIGHT MOON..

2008-12-13T09:55:00.000-08:00

I have 4 words for you.

THE MOON LAST NIGHT. It was the biggest full moon in 15 years,

Wow. So, yeah.

Anywhoo, THE BIGGEST LOSER had me crying my eyes out last night. Together now-- EMO...

Friday nights in my world usually consist of family bonding and playful taunting of one another. Its a real good time.

Once everyone goes to bed, my mom and I watch our favorite tv shows that were recorded throughout the week. We have this unspoken pact between us. Its understood that we do not watch these shows without each other, and if one of us by chance slips up, we watch it again anyway. Its really cute, probably juvenile and weird in a way, but who cares. Thats how we roll and I wouldnt trade it in for anything. I guess you can say that we bond over tv.

Yes, we are both Libras. Yes, we love to watch intense obscure films and tear jerking reality TV together.
Yes, we are rooting for Michelle to win..

Ill be posting my best albums of 2008 really soon and a bunch of other best/worst lists too. I know, I know, edge of your seat material.com

Leslo, I love you, Im sorry that I havent sent your discs out, I just havent had a sec to sit by my computer for more than 10 minutes at a time. Soon, soon, I promise. Still loving the ones you sent me. Love DCforC xmas songs!

GREETINGS!!

2008-12-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

Hello readers and fellow haters! Ive been completely MIA lately because school this week has had me hyperventilating. My last class in on Monday and Im really looking forward to exhaling again. I hate it when the blogs I enjoy reading arent updated regularly, so please dont hate me and understand. K, disclaimer over.

After taking my final this week and acting like a total spazz during the exam, my teacher pulled me aside, and by aside, I mean out in the hallway- to tell me that shes "nervous" about me moving forward. I took that as the "you are sooo screwed" talk. Here I was counting down the days until this killer class was over and done with, and here she was telling me that I was starting all over. If there was one thing that I WAS certain of, it was that I sure as hell wasnt shelling out 2 grand again for this hellish crap again. I explained to her that I always had a problem with test taking even in grade school, but that wasnt going over well. "Meet me in my office tomorrow during office hours, we need to talk"

Enter wha wha wha sound.

My life was over. I was flipping out and something told me that tears werent going to cut it this time. I went home and worked my ass off that night and did the whole test over. I marched my ass right into her office first thing in the AM with my new lease on life (blueprints) in my hands and a full speech, prepared for doom. "I know that youre worried, but please let me assure you, I can do the work, I just dont test well" I said, while I unrolled the prints.. "Its not that I dont think you can do it, I just worry about the time you need" she says, "I mean, you passed the final R______."

"WAIT, WTF did she just say??!! " I thought. Enter the angels singing and the organ playing Hallelujah in my head. "Oh, I know" I said. (Holy shit, I passed? NO! I DIDNT KNOW!!- Im thinking) "I just wanted you to know that Im dedicated to do whatever it takes to show you (and I really was)..... "

"Well" she says, "Im glad you took the time to show me and this will help your grade.." Help my grade? Dude as long as I dont get an F in this class, Im tha-rihilled! "Shall I leave my prints with you?" I ask, "No they look right, you can hang onto those" They look right?! Hell yeah theyre right, and you should take them after I just worked my ass off on em. I dont care if you use them as wee wee pad for your non-existent dog, I wanted to say, but instead I just smiled. I took my little roll of sheets with me and walked out scratching my head. Stoked but kinda bummed that she scared the living daylights out of me. So yeah I spent the whole day and night sweating, crying, nagging and complaining to anyone whod listen, and I passed?? Niiice. What a waste of anti-depressants.

Great story, I know. So thats where Im at. This weekend is going to be killer on me preparing for my final project to turn in on Monday, but after that, Im free for a few weeks. So brace yourselves, Ill be blogging like a beast.

This week was also a very enlightening one. Some lessons learned, some pain inflicted, some gifts received (always fun) and some pounds shed. Cant complain. Im smiling.

In other news, I mysteriously found a walky talkie in my car on the front seat the other day, leading me to believe that I was being followed, or that I was just enrolled in some new reality tv show unbeknownst to me. I had some fun with the buttons and mumbled some code words into it once the feeling in my legs came back. No response. After a closer look, I saw that it belonged to the parking lot that I parked in the other day. I should give it back but I dont really want to, because lets be honest, hasnt everyone always wanted to own a REAL heavy walky talkie that wasnt purchased at TOYS R US?

Yeah, so this post is kinda lame and boring but Im regaining my jous jous. I promise to be better.

Also, lately Ive been getting a lot of howls on the street which always feels super sexy dot not. "Damn girl, that coat is the shyeat" a man said to me the other day on my way to class. "Thank you" I replied.

"Sweetie, whats your name? you just made my day in them boots, thank you and have a great day ,sexy" another bum shot at me. I shot back a wink which looked more like I was having a seizure because, Im not a great winker (wow, the word winker sounds kind of dirty, doesnt it?). He looked confused but still smiled. So.... that was good. Hopefully next week, I can get the gas attendant to flirt with me, and next month- ya never know, maybe even the meter maid (or man whatever theyre called) while he writes out my ticket. Im aiming high, because life is short. Hollerrr.

x to tha o

HEAVEN

2008-12-04T14:12:00.000-08:00

I am in heaven right now. Sheer heaven. A long needed getaway. Well overdue. Aside from the fact that they are playing some really obscure hip hop by the pool, all is good by me. So yeah, that why Ive been MIA.

Hope you are all well. Went to see some art yesterday at the convention center, yes, ART BASEL. mhmm, im now outed!

HOLY FREEZING

2008-11-30T16:37:00.000-08:00

It is so rewarding to feel like people really enjoy reading my blog. L sent me 3 amazing cds with the sweetest card ever enclosed in the parcel. Thank you momma-loo! (I think I need to make you a little mix. Send me your addy) Im loving it so far, ps!

Ive been toying with the idea of posting my best text of the day in my posts. That is not to say that I wont use crazy discretion and will probably wimp out in posting the REALLY good ones. With that being said, Im just putting it out there. I think Im going to add that feature and see how how it goes...

Last night I had a really fun time. I ended up meeting up with D and just shooting the shit and catching up. We laughed a ton and recorded 7 billion voice notes on our blackberries of us laughing our assess off. Weird I know, but not really. We listened to a ton of old SMASHING PUMPKINS and COUNTING CROWS. Good times with a capital G. Gosh I love listening to music I grew up on in school. Brings back such great memories. Songs do that to me. In listening to some songs, I remember exactly where I was when I first heard them, who my boyfriend was at the time and how I felt, mood wise, when I heard those songs. Memories..

i know I havent been posting too much about music lately. Once I finish this semester, Ill be back with a ton of new tunes for you guys. Part of me, in writing this blog, feels like I need to write a proper write up for a song, artist or album instead of just tossing a song in at the bottom of the page. maybe I need to do just that for now. So here my little chickadees..

THE WRENS- SHE SENDS KISSES a personal old favorite of mine. His voice is delicious..

NOSTALGIA from last night

Ava Adore - The Smashing Pumpkins

Round Here - Counting Crows

UMMM...

2008-11-28T12:50:00.000-08:00

How on earth did I forget to mention the most important thing Im thankful for??
Forgive me everyone!!

I AM SOOOO THANKFUL FOR MY BLOG READERS WHO TUNE IN TO READ MY RANTS, RAVES, REVIEWS AND RANDOM THOUGHTS!!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU AND THANK YOU!!

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU AND AM SUPER THANKFUL TO HAVE ALL OF YOU LOYAL PATRONS!!

I hope you all enjoyed your thanksgiving as much as I did. I now feel like this...

Thanks you to everyone who texted me and said that they were thankful to know me. Too cute. Tear in the eye, you had me at hello.

THANKS G

2008-11-25T21:43:00.000-08:00

Its that time of year again. I love THANKSGIVING! I know for most it marks a time when families gather after not having been in the same room all together in a while and such; but I always am around my fam and nonetheless love it.

I CANT WAIT to have everyone over!!

I plan on getting my corn on in going around the table of 18 asking everyone what theyre thankful for aside from their family and significant others love and whatnot (boring) just to spice things up a bit. Im sure itll be an experience. I love corny exercises like that.. Especially with my family because we are all loony and random!!

Well, anyway-

Here are a bunch of things that Im thankful for-

1. Aveno facial moisturizer, its getting cold out there and this one seems to help my sensitive skin stay dewy and whatever.

2. My amazing friends who put up with me and my flakey-ness and my bossy style in manning the tunes whenever we are in the car.

3. My freedom. On so many different levels.

4. My TWEEZERMAN slanted tip tweezer, gosh that thing is one of my prized possessions.

5. My visual concepts teacher. He is so brilliant and Im thankful to have him as my maestro.

6. MY APPLE computer- without her Id be blogless, musicless and probably vegan (whaaa??)

7. Facebook updates, because where would I be without minute to minute updates about my friends bowel movements and their gossip girl updates?!!

8. The NY POST delivery man, who delivers, when I can reach it- my daily dose of SUDOKU and NY smut.

9. TRUE BLOOD, my most favorite show in the whole wide world. Ill miss you.. July, season 2!!

10. For added extra celebrity gossip and witty humor.

Theres tons more but I just took a tylenol PM and im fading... So...

Gobble Gobble.

ALMOST..

2008-11-20T09:43:00.000-08:00

Ever get so close to getting something, you can just taste it? Only to have it disappear before your very eyes? Yeah? Well, welcome to the STORY OF MY LIFE, and Im not talking about the last cupcake on the dessert table either.. Im going to turn my taste buds off for a while though, they need to be reset.

I will say, that over the last few weeks, my eyes have been opened up to so many different kinds of lifestyles and situations leaving me thankful for all of these experiences. I find that as I get older, I am more open to learning and listening and in doing so, its proving to be so very rewarding.

ANYWHOO.

The weather here has been killing me lately. So freaking cold. My fingers feel like they are ready to snap off at any given moment. But, they're polished so- thats good. BTW, I got a manicure at this place DASHING DIVA. Heavenly!! They scrubbed my hands with this almond scrub that worked wonders on my skin. My hands were softer than a babies ass after the whole process. They also put these aromatherapy peppermint drops in the water that kinda grossed me out, only because Im not into that stuff. For the rest of the day, I smelled like I took a bath in every free sample at THE BODY SHOPPE. Whatever, all in all it was a great manicure. Perfect red nails make me happy.

Im making Thanksgiving dinner by me this year and Im so excited about it. I pretty much have my menu narrowed down to perfection. Should be a nice night. I love the whole Thanksgiving day breakdown. Everyone basically sits around waiting til 4 to devour a bird and pack in enough food to pass out within 3-4 hours max. Its quite adorable. THEN, the brave men/women still standing attempt to catch a movie and go as far as looking up the show times, but never actually venture out of the house. Good lazy times. Gobble Gobble. I think Im going to have old records playing in the background over dinner then afterwards have a little arts and crafts station set up on the floor for anyone who wants to get down and dirty. Thanksgiving inspired art, of course. Feathers, fringes, beads... Ooh Im getting so excited. Wanna come?

I really should not be home blogging right now, I have a million things to do. Oh, Im loving the Christmas songs back in rotation on the radio. Hold that thought, Im going to post a list of my favorite CM songs next post. Try not to die in anticipation.. K? I am dying to cover SILENT NIGHT though. Anyone wanna do it with me? A major plus if you can play decent gee tar.

Loving this song, nothing new, CHILDREN by DELTA SPIRIT - I listen to it a good 4 times a day.

Children - Delta Spirit

TO THE BONE

2008-11-17T19:33:00.000-08:00

Hello lovers and haters.

List time-

1. Ive bitten my nails down to the core. Low and painful and I feel miserable about it. Yes, Ive been stressed, sad, messed up and glad.

2. Im gutted over the EX LIST being cancelled. Terrible, tremendous loss. While we are on it, rumor has it LIPSTICK JUNGLE is on its way out too. Goodbye to cheesy girl sitcoms. Hello reality overload.

3. Im done making plans with D. D- you gotta get your sh*t together.

4. CHIMAY beer ra- hooles.

5. I finally accepted my moms pin. May the 24 hrs of bbm-ing begin. Cant wait to catch heat when I dont answer her.

6. Ive applied for an editorial internship at SPIN magazine. I hope they like my essay or even get to read it considering the fact that I sent it with 4 only minutes to spare til the deadline hit. Better late than never, thank gd I cosmically stumbled upon the opportunity an hr before closing time. Some things are meant to be, I hope. Fingers crossed.

7. I have a crush on a boy in my class. Hes so cute and he wears SURFACE TO AIR sweaters. Adorable. He does not have a crush on me so lets keep that between us, okay?

8. The parking lot attendant, on the other hand.... might like me, hes finally over S.

9. My fingers hurt when I type because my nails are s short. Ew, I am gross.

10. My red string is still holding strong tied to my right wrist. I hope I get my wish. I really do.

11. Ive been back in uke mode. Been playing CALIFORNIA STARS on it. I stink but will not throw in the towel.

K, thanks.

I must get a manicure tomorrow. I need to end this madness. I am gross.

SAY WHA??

2008-11-14T14:52:00.000-08:00

Ive been thinking about how much I wish I had a stenographer with me all the time. People wouldnt believe the kinds of conversations I get into on a daily basis. Some really deep and some really dumb ones. The dumb ones are most entertaining.

Yesterday I got into a heated debate about the best bottled water on the market. You know, the kind that comes from MAINE, ie OUR TOILET BOWLS??

them- "you know which one is the best?"

me- "poland spring, hands down"

them- "omg, no! absolutely not!"

me- "ugh tell me YOU are NOT referring to EVIAN??!!! ewwww BARF. That stuff is so gross."

them- "what?? how could you say that?? I love EVIAN, its THE BEST!!""

me- "ugh, because its from the french or swiss alps or whatever??"
"well for starters, it tastes like thick gross hot plastic, it feels like syrup when you chug it and no matter how cold it is, it always feels warm"

them- "I cannot believe what Im hearing"

me- "no, I lied, it tastes like what I would assume licking the whole length of an ice skating rink covered in saran wrap would taste like. Thick, gross and barfy "

them- "hahahha, omg, gross!!! youre soo right"

me- "case closed- want a bottle of water? im thirsty"

SIDE NOTE-

The world of bottled water according to MOI.

The key players-

evian= hot toilet water

aquafina = corporate cold toilet water/ airport signature brand to carry at the magazine shop= propaganda.

dasani= see aquafina with an odd taste of coffee in it, also smells like an airplane, eww.

volvic= even thicker plastic water. commonly found when on vacation and its familiar logo makes you feel somewhat at home, yet is still tastes awful

dannon= a yogurt company, please, spare us with your entrepreneurial h20 side project.

fiji= beautiful picture to look at, taste- eh, its okay.

panna= restaurant rip off water, but not that bad.

smart water= not so smart.

vitamin water= melted popsicle flavored mixed with toilet water.

deer park= so 1992.

saratoga or those blue bottles on restaurant tables= sink water with floaters in it masked by the hue of the blue glass so that you dont see whats really in there.

POLAND SPRINGS- BEST WATER

Go ahead, leave me your hate comments about how spoiled I am and how I should drink tap water and all that other crap. I do drink tap so leave that out. Dont forget to remind me of the episode on 20/20 where they showed that PS was parasite ridden. A little protein never hurt anyone, right??

K.

CALIFORNIA STARS

2008-11-12T12:04:00.000-08:00

So my blog stinks lately. I know. I dont know what been wrong with me, but my blogging has definitely weaned off a bit.
I guess its just been a long couple of weeks with some personal stuff going on. I hate getting too personal on here so I will spare my readers the sap.

Ive been bowling a ton lately. The other night I basically kicked ass and bowled a 140. I also beat N 4 times!! N rules at bowling so yes, Im gloating.

Ive also been saying HOLLERRRR a ton lately in the whitest accent possible. I think its becoming borderline annoying. Might need to work on it.

Who wants to make me a CD? I love a personally hand plucked disc with tunes picked out specifically for me. So send it anonymously if you dont want to tell me who you are. Comment me and Ill give you the address to send it to. Sounds creepy, but I dont care. I welcome lurkers, not everyone has to out themselves that theyre reading this thing. Im flattered that people are even reading it all, whoever is left at least..

Im loving the song CALIFORNIA STARS by WILCO. This songs makes me feel really melancholy and sentimental. WILCO taps into my searching side. His voice is raw and soothing and makes me feel calm and mellow. Good for driving too.

Im cutting this post short because-

1. Im feeling sad today.
2. Im going to go see my niece and suck the life out of her tiny body. UGHHHH. Love her. I am obsessed with this baby.

PS-I want to get paid to write. I really do.

Listen to this song and be sad with me.

California Stars - Biilly Brag and Wilco

YES I CAN!!!

2008-11-09T15:49:00.000-08:00

I have a love hate relationship with vitamins. Now that its starting to get cold outside, Im back to chugging em. The worst one by far is ECHINACEA and GOLDEN SEAL. Its pretty much vomit in a pill. I guess we all need to ingest some vile stuff though right? Hopefully, I will not get sick. If I do, that bottle goes in the basura.

Not to go back on the election crap but did anyone else find it bothersome that OBAMAS tag line and slogan was YES WE CAN! ??? Correct me if im wrong, but this line was posted all over the place. It became the mantra of his followers. Flags and posters were waved with this profound theory.
NOW.... If you are anywhere within my age group, this line would strike a chord within you. WHY?? Because it was from the NUTTY PROFESSOR!!! Thats right folks-- Professor KLUMP used that line when he couldnt get the nerve up to ask the hot girl out because he was so fat. MHMM, they ripped off an EDDIE MURPHY movie!!! So, when I kept seeing those signs and everyones facebook statuses, all it did was take me back to my childhood. All I could see was THE NUTTY PROFESSORS lip bulging while he was on a date with that chick.

LADIES and GENTLEMAN- Like the nutty professor once said- YES, I CAN!!!

GUESS WHAT??!!! Someone else thought of the same exact thing as I did!!!

Oh Em GEEEEE!!

LOOK

IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING, GIVE IT AWAY.

2008-11-07T14:30:00.000-08:00

CONOR OBERST AND THE MYSTIC VALLEY BAND is back in town this weekend. I didnt get tickets. As shocking as this might sound, I might not even go. Theyre playing terminal 5. I hate huge venues. Call me an elitist if you will, but i just feel so overwhelmed in those places.

I think MICHELLE OBAMAS red getup was so awful the other night. What was she thinking? Her daughter wore red too. Thats fine, but how did whoever dress them not notice how badly they clashed together?? Yikes. If anyone knows anyone on that front, tell them to hire me as their stylist. I will dress that family like no one has ever seen before. Her dress fit her so poorly that it actually hurt my heart. She needs to do some serious thinking.
Their daughters are really adorable, btw.

Im so happy that the election is finally over. I was getting really bored with it. Now we can move on to talking about important stuff like, THE OSCARS, CHRISTMAS VACATION and THE BEST OF THE BEST annual magazine editions. Haha, well not really, but ya know..

I just ate a cupcake and I want to barf. Barfing is gross though. So ill just have to let it sit and rot in my stomach.

I saw CHANGELING this week with my mom and sis. ANGELINA JOLIE is stunning, obvs. The movie was really heavy. I love heavy intense films, especially the ones that get me thinking and leave me thinking for a few days afterwards; but this one left me feeling really unsettled in a bothersome way. So my opinion of it is- Eh.

HE SAID- SHE SAID

2008-11-04T14:27:00.000-08:00

How freaking nice was it outside today? I love when its warmer out. Makes me smile.
I told a gay friend about my "gay" story and he laughed in my face and said that im the most un-homophobic person he knows and that as a matter of fact, I am a 'fag hag." KISS MY ASS dude from the other night.

I went to ANGELIKAS KITCHEN today with J after school. He always drags me to these vegan places that view carob chips as if they were g-ds gift to the world. I mean seriously now. I was starving and had to order some cardboard stuffed with a fake omelet, while he licks his fingers in glee. Forgive me, but seitan wedges dont rock my world. Never have- never will. Our sweetheart waiter came to take our order, I ordered my fake lunch and then asked for a diet coke. "Sorry, we dont have soda" "WHAT?" I say? Oh its not healthy, how dare I even think of drinking something with taste. "So go get one from the news stand on the corner" he says, "Ya know what? I will" I took off and did just that. I came back with it, "Can I just get a glass with ice please?" "Oh, we dont have ice" Okay, is this for real? Welcome to hell, I think to myself, where tempei is for dinner, quinoa is for dessert and L Ron HUBBARD is the mayor. WHATS WRONG WITH ICE? "Oh, they say youre not supposed to drink cold beverages with meals, its not good for you." This place is not good for me. I start to tell our waiter friend, who was the coolest, btw, the G story and he laughs saying that the dude was pretty pathetic. "This restaurant is so freaking gay" I say, we all laugh. We decide that our waiter is our new best friend. He is also in a band. More on that another time. Oh btw, they dont serve coffee either! Mhmm. He loves his job because a simple, "Im sorry, we dont have that" always seems to be the answer. In the end, lunch was actually good, and I like the place. The no soda or ice thing is still cracked if you ask me.

Last night D and I were talking and he was saying that he always wanted to get to know and was happy that we are now friends. "Why?" I ask. "Because im super cool? " Well yeah he says, "Cool in different ways. Say like, I like the BEEGEES and you like DEF LEOPARD" Okay there are no words for how legendary that line was. DEF LEOPARD??? "You know what I mean!!" he says. I really dont but I let it go, because I know what he means.

Guess what? Im rocking a red string on my wrist from Israel, thanks D. "Its the real deal, not like the MADONNA kind" again, wheres the stenographer when I need one?? I have a severe sensory issue, which means that when I got outta the shower this morning, the wet red string was bothering me to death. Thank g it dried in under an hour. EXHALE.

Yes, I have a crush on my older teacher. He loved my abstract painting. So cute.

I havent posted music in a while, because Ive been listening to a lot of older stuff. Like for instance,
BLACK REBEL MOTORCYCLE CLUB- BABY 81- 666 CONDUCER and all the other amazing tracks of theirs. Ive broken out my SADDLE CREEK 50 ALBUM again. SO yeah thats where im at right now. I wanted to catch the TING TINGS with N, but sadly it didnt work out. Next time.

BABY 81
Baby 81

No dice on SADDLE CREEK- SORRY.

LISTLESS

2008-11-02T18:33:00.000-08:00

I know that Ive been lagging on the blog lately but I just have been busy with stuff.

So heres a list- Send me blogging jous jous and inspire me to write again..

1. I love dried figs. So delish. I love crunching on the millions of seeds inside them. Not the sugar added kind, just regular dried figs.

2. On Friday J and I went for lunch on Smith Street and bought bags of candy. We gave all the little kids candy, it was so feaking cute! The moms loved us because we brought trick or treating to them.

3. I say "thats gay" a lot! Many of my close friends are gay. I say it to them. They laugh. I am in no way homophobic. Last night, however, someone overheard me telling a story about a guy telling me that texting was gay and interjected. HELLOO ass face, whos even talking to you? "Im gay-you have a problem with that?" he says.. No, I answer and stare right at him. Seriously, moron, get a life. He then proceeded to call his friend a "retard" 20 times. Um does anyone else find that to be hypocritical?? For some reason y brain kept on saying to itself- "i have nipples Gregg, can you milk me?" hahaha.

4. Its freezing out tonight. Its so cold that for a millisecond, I considered buying uggs when I took the garbage out in my pajamas. What?? It was a millisecond. My godzilla boots will just have to do.

5. Is everyone ready for REJECTION day? Why do I feel like Tuesday is going to be a super scary day? I feel like we are in danger. That is all I will say,

6. Sometimes when I sit still in total silence, I see things so clearly. I need to do that more often.

7. Holler to my friends who ran the marathon today!!

8. Unholler to my newspaper delivery boy who keeps throwing my newspaper into the tree. How the heck am I supposed to read it, if I cant freaking reach it??!! Im going to hit him one day.

20 BELOW

2008-10-29T22:04:00.000-07:00

Its freaking freezing outside. Painfully cold. Like I cant feel my hands cold. Like when youre walking with your friends, you run ahead into the store or restaurant because its all a matter of every man for himself cold.

I got an 80 on my drafting test. Yup the one I cried about it. I already wrote that didnt I?

So far this week has been great. Cant wait for tomorrow night. I decided that im going to be a hot vampiress, due to my current obsession with, yup, you guessed it, TRUE BLOOD. I also spent wayyy too much on my costume. T and I had a blast shopping for them so whatevs.

Did I mention that I bowled a 130 a few days ago. Yep. (B)ite me. Haha, weird, vampire. So unintentional.

I overheard two people talking today about the new "speedball" Apparently its the mix of RED BULL and HENNESSEY. Sounds gross. I had red bull for the first time in a while the other night. Oddly enough, that was when I bowled the 130.

I hope I dont get sick. This weather blows. People seem to be coughing all over me wherever I go the last few days. Yesterday at the bank this dude was coughing all over me. I kept having to control myself from screaming at him to please keep his SARS to himself. Gosh, cover your mouth- man! Instead I gave him a bit of stink eye and moved over.

What is it about winter that brings out everyones poor manners? People sneezing in the air, picking their noses, wiping their noses with their hands, slurping snot in, phlegmy coughs without covering mouths...so freaking gross. Get a freaking tissue man. Cover your mouth or stay home dammit!!!

DELTA PHI KAPPA

2008-10-25T11:08:00.000-07:00

So the last few days have been interesting. I cant really write too much about them though. What I can say is that life is funny sometimes and takes some unexpected turns. Hows that for vague? Also, I had a this life altering epiphany the other night too. Im seriously going to try to be a better person from now on. I can give more of myself and I want to. Our stay on this planet is short, why not take advantage and be the best we can be? Sappy, I know.

Btw, Im obsessed with the show THE EX LIST. Its hilarious, check it out. No, you dont need cable. Its about a girl in her early thirties trying to find her future husband after getting her palm read and hearing that she was going to marry someone that she was already in a relationship with. AKA one of her ex-boyfriends. Just watch it.

What else, what else?? DELTA SPIRIT is playing tonight. Im so excited! If you dont know them, check em out. Their new album is really great and their old one is even better. MATT VASQUEZ's voice is beautiful and KELLY WINRICH can play a piano . The whole band is actually EXTREMELY amazing and very good looking ;) Theyre based out of SAN DIEGO and their sound is sort of like Indie rock meets Bluegrassy country. My friend P from Costa Mesa turned me on to these guys, his friends, 2 years ago and Ive been hooked ever since. People compare them to the COLD WAR KIDS, oddly enough, those are their boys. I happen to think they kinda stand on their own plane. Theres a deep southern influence in their sound with a significant amount of soul too. Their lyrics make me think, and I love that. Theyre hopeful, real and grounding yet not sad. They use a ton of instruments like the CWK- trash can lids, tambourines etc.. Speaking of trash cans, check out TRASHCAN off of the ODE TO SUNSHINE. PEOPLE CMON is great too. Just get the album OKAY??? My real favorites though are GIMME SOME MOTIVATION and STREETWALKER off of their older album called I THINK IVE FOUND IT. I think ive actually blogged about these dudes before. Their whole inner circle of bands rule. AA BONDY, COLD WAR KIDS, DR. DOG.... Refreshing bands in a not so refreshing music scene lately. Is it me or is everything starting to sound the same? Get on these guys.

HERES A TASTE

Trashcan - Delta Spirit

I DARE YOU TO TELL ME THAT THIS SONG DOESNT MAKE YOU FEEL A LITTLE BIT TALLER!!

Streetwalker - Delta Spirit

THIS ONE MAKES ME WANT TO JUMP OUT OF MY CAR - ALWAYS PUTS ME IN A GOOD MOOD.

Gimme Some Motivation - Delta Spirit